Category: My weird, wonderful, insane, ranting, raving, articulating claptrap

So this week seems to have gone stupidly fast. That seems to be right for all weeks at the moment. They’re flying by and merging and all becoming one. So at the moment I have no idea if tomorrow is last Tuesday or October 4.

I think though that the merging and confusion thing is quite common at the moment for everyone. Not really had a great time this last week. Things have been well and truly fucked up. The usual MS things have been playing up but on Friday things got really FUBARed. During if the day this dizziness wasn’t great, well it hasn’t been great for a while but Friday afternoon I got the usual dizzy feeling, but what makes it strange was the fact that this time I had the feeling in my arm. Let’s say that floored me for a bit then I just carried on as normal. Friday night rolls round and things got really bad. Pain, dizziness and to top it off my legs didn’t work properly. So I’m sat on mum and dad’s bed losing my mind because I wasn’t sure what the hell was going on, I was confused and couldn’t speak, I think I knew the words but they just didn’t want to come out of my mouth. Mum and dad came up and I just really struggled to explain what was going on. It’s not easy at the best of times but when all you can do is make noises it makes it that little bit harder. So eventually after some motherly coercion I managed to calm down and make it back to the fridged north or as most people know it, my room. The air con has been running overtime this last week. So back in the cold I started to cool and calm down and mum came in for a chat.

So we chatted away for a bit and things started to work again, what a massive relief that was. We seem to think that it was MS being aggravated by the heat and that I hadn’t been sleeping too well recently either. And that was that.

I said last week that I had breathing issues and things on that side have been a bit rough this week too. So I’m now carrying my puffers round religiously, that way I make mum do. “DO AS I SAY AND NOT AS I DO”. So breathing has been a bit of an issue again, I think down to the heat and possibly pollen. I’m keeping an eye on the pollen forecast now just in case it’s that. Speaking of forecasts, most people see warm sunny days on the forecast and look forward to them, I don’t, I dread them worrying what’s going to happen this time. Thank god for aircon that’s all I have to say about that.

This last week has been a bit more arty than crafty. Not sure if you spotted my art work on Facebook or not but here is my Sanntangled Dream Catcher:

I’m pleased with it and I think it looks good. It’s doesn’t seem to want to load up at the moment but I’ll get it sorted………….19 years, 5 months, 3 weeks, 6 days and 14 hours later:

So that’s my dream catcher.

I’ve done some other tangling this week as well :

There will have been more but as usual I haven’t taken any pictures. The other sock is still no further forward. But this evening I attempted to colour a gem:

There’s 2 pictures of it one with just the colour before I used blending solution and the second afterwards. I’m not sure which one looks better. What do you think? It’s only in a sketch book so it doesn’t really matter I just wonder what others think.

As it’s now gone 12 it’s time for my daily dose of Flow Free and a cheesey nineties hit film, a Schwarzenegger special ……. Total Recall. I’ve only seen the newer version once and I think the original is better. 

Plans for next week are to speak to the doctor about my mouth and tongue. Its been really sensitive for a while now to the point where it’s really painful to eat and drink some things. Using mouthwash for example can cause agony, Its a bit like Listerine type pain but 50 times worse. That’s with any mouthwash or even just brushing my teeth, anything with the slightest bit of spice is a big no no too. We had lamb Tajine for tea, had some great flavour but I just couldn’t eat it because of the pain it was causing. Some sweets and crisps can be an issue and some other things you wouldn’t think of. So conversation with the GP and hope that we can get something sorted. I think it may be a throwback from a dry mouth thing. My mouth used to get that dry I couldn’t speak because my tongue used to stick to the roof of my mouth or my cheek or something. And I’ve only recently realised that this issue isn’t normal and there are treatments available for it. So from that side of things wish me luck.

Another thing I’m planning on doing is a meditation with a piece of Campo Del Cielo Meteorite. I’ve had for a while now and found it again the other day. I could feel it buzzing in my head screaming for me to work with it. So I’ll find some time for that and who knows where I’ll end up and what I’ll learn and get from it.

Love and Light

Well what to say about today?

It’s been an interesting one that’s for sure. There’s been tangling, TV, sewing and puffers. This afternoon I had breathing issues. I wasn’t able to breath properly and so a full on panic attack kicked in. What fun that was, halfway down the stairs, issues breathing, panicking and unable to speak and get anyone’s attention. Luckily dad came out the kitchen saw me, shouted mum and they both managed to sort me out.

I started having breathing issues earlier in the day so I was half expecting something but nothing that bad. Like is said I was having issues most of the day, because it was warm I put Zoe on her long lead in the back garden so we could have the doors open for a bit. Zoe decided to go routing about the way dogs do and she got the lead stuck round a stump. So I had a look and decided I needed some shoes on so I could get in the bushes and help her out. So head down rooting about in a bush to untangle the lead. I managed to sort that out and stood up. As I stood up the dizziness starts and I nearly go flying. So after that the puffing kicks in. So managed to stumble to the back door and sit down for a bit.

Huffing and puffing I built up the energy to go and get my puffers which of course were upstairs in my room. So I managed to get back upstairs find my puffers and stupidly rather than using them then and there I decide in my infinite wisdom to go back downstairs and then use them. So halfway down the stairs it all starts and you know the rest.

This last week I’ve spent my time colouring and tangling. I’ve talked about tangling before and I’ve been following Sandra Rushton’s videos on Facebook. On Monday, Wednesday and Friday there are Tangle Tutorials on her Facebook page. Tangling is very mindful and helps you escape your problems for a bit.

Here are some pictures of the work form her tutorials.

I did take a bit of poetic license though. During the week Sandra had a private Facebook Session that I went to. That session was doing a large project one that could be used on the front of a card. I wasn’t sure about it when I started, I didn’t think it looked that good at first but the more I went on the better it looked and I’m quite impressed with what I came up with in the end. What do you think?

Yesterday I started a tile and used random patterns in the different sections. It wasn’t planned and I just went with it. I started it pretty late Saturday night so I left it an finished Sunday morning. This is what I came up with:

I like it anyway and that’s all that matters.

For the last few days I haven’t slept very well at all. I’ve been waking up and silly o’clock and haven’t been able to get back to sleep. So I’ve ended up watching TV. On Saturday morning though I’m glad I woke up early though. Sandra Rushton was one create and craft TV. Yes Create and Craft TV my guilty pleasure. She was on promoting Sanntangle. So it was nice to see something about a craft I liked.

Sewing wise I finished off a mask for mum. I was mightily pissed off though. As I was seeing the last few stitches I stabbed my finger. And a few drops of blood later on a light blue fabric mask I wasn’t happy. I normally wash things like that anyway when I’ve finished sewing and was hoping that the blood spots would come out. Luckily after washing the spots had gone and all was fine. So hung it to dry in the dining room and it should be dry and ready for mum to use in the morning.

Knitting wise I’m still on sock number 2. I’m about 1/2 an inch further on than I was last week. Tangling has taken priority this week.

Another thing that I noticed today was that the pollen count was high. I think that could have something to do with the breathing issues but not sure.

I can’t think of anything else so I’ll leave it there.

Love and light

So this week the new car came….

I got to ride in it on the way home from the car place and we went out in it today for a little drive so mum could figure out how things on it work.

I need to come up with a name for her. At the moment I’m thinking Queeny Quartz but it doesn’t feel quite right. Quartz because that’s the paint colour and Queeny because it fits with quartz. To sound Yoda like “meditate on this I will”, so I’ll have to do some thinking about it and see where that’s goes.

The other thing is the lockdown has started up again. What fun, I don’t think the lockdown has even thought about how inconsiderate it’s being. It’s interrupted my social life again. Lol, I know it’s important and understand why it has to be done but if we don’t laugh and try to enjoy ourselves with what we have where would we be? I’ve been to that dark place and I can’t say I want to go back. It’s not a nice place to be so I’ll do everything I can to stay away from it.

So knitting wise I finished one sock for mum and I’m working on number 2. So if she only had one foot it would be fine. But being awkward she has two. I only started it yesterday so I’m about an inch or so in. 5 more inches before the heel flap. If I get my head down it will be done before I know it.

I’ve been doing some tangling aswell. I was working through the zentangle primer and one of the last exercises in it was to make a zentangle mosaic. This is what I came up with:

I’ve also been following along with some of the Sanntangle videos and sessions on Facebook. I haven’t taken any pictures of that work you’ll ha e to use your imagination. It’s not that I don’t want to share it it’s just that I haven’t taken any pictures and my book is downstairs and I’m up. I can’t be arsed moving to sort pictures out. I’ve found one picture I took:

What else has been going on? Well it’s dads birthday today. He seems to have enjoyed himself. Me Katie and mum got him a join birthday present. We got him a Braun stick blender thing. He’s been dropping hints about wanting one for a while so we got him one.

We also have a new TV in the front room. I think dad was struggling with size envy over my 55 inch TV so he wanted one of his own. So there’s now a 55inch TV in the front room. The old one has gone into Diana’s room.

I’ve no idea what caused it. It was stupidly hot yesterday so it could have been that, the pollen count could have been high too but not sure and can’t seem to find anywhere to check. Lots of places show what the count is today but not in the past. The only other thing I could find was stuff about what kind of pollen is around at what time of year and if it’s likely to be high or not, so not much use there really.

Saturday wasn’t a good day for me, I felt shitty, had issues breathing and I was beyond dizzy. Any movement, even the smallest and slightest, made my head spin. It was crap, I had to use my pink puffer a couple of extra times, well more than my normal puffs in the morning and evening. But thank god I feel better today. The other thing that happened was I completely lost it when I accidentally broke a glass. I was scared and didn’t know what to do. All that was running through my head was that broken glass is dangerous. So I was curled up on a chair holing the dog so neither of us would get hurt or cut. The other thing running through my head was the worry and fear that I’d been naughty as was going to get told off. How stupid! I’m in my late 30s and scared I was going to get in trouble for accidentally breaking a glass.

Anyway, that was Saturday and it’s in the past. I feel a lot better now so no point in dwelling on it.

So with that I’m going to get back to my socks.

Love and light

I think there might be a song there somewhere but I’m not sure.

So yeah, the world is starting to turn again and things a slowly getting back to normal. Random phone call the other day partly out of the blue and partly expected. The new car is due to arrive at the car place on Wednesday and can be picked up on Thursday. Shame I won’t be able to drive it (no license and all that shit) but it’s still a bit exciting.

This is also the first post from a brand new phone. A massive thank you to Dad for sorting it out. A brand new iPhone 11 Pro Max. It’s great and the battery life is immense. Took it off charge this morning and have been playing with it on and off all day and right now it’s on 77%. So pretty good going.

So new phone and new car coming next week, just makes me wonder what other great things are round the corner?

So knitting wise I’m still on sock number 1. Heading towards the to decrease, have another inch or so to go before that but I’ll get there sooner than I know. That’s if I get my head down and carry on with it. I’ve been doing other things, I’ve been tangling and watching TV. In fact I don’t think I’ve really done much recently.

Last weekend I had a trip to the Trafford centre with Katie, Harvey and Adam. That was an interesting day out. It wasn’t as busy as I’ve seen it in the past but there were still a fair few people out. And surprisingly not very many were wearing face masks. I know it was before they were made compulsory but I’d say that less than a quarter of people had one on.

At the Trafford Centre I finally got my Christmas and Birthday presents. I got a new bag and some new trainers. So only a couple of months late for Christmas and a month or so late for the birthday but I got them in the end.

The other thing that’s not been great this past week is a mess up and a delay in getting the next batch of medication. When my medication is messed up I get messed up so as you can guess if at all possible I don’t want my medication to have a sudden change in dosage or to not have enough of it. And not having enough is what sort of happened. I had to drop some and tweak others but it was only for part of a day so it wasn’t too bad.

I can’t think of anything else to really talk about so I’m going to leave it there.

Love and light.

I’ve been feeling good and happy the last few day. Things are starting to get back to the new normal.

Sunday knitting has started up again. The first one was Sunday just gone. There were only a few of us but it was great to see and talk to other people that you don’t live with.

I didn’t really do allot of knitting because I spent a lot of time talking to people and wondering round the shop. I suppose I should point out that during the session we were upstairs and all socially distance.

During the session I carried on with the socks I’m doing for mum. She wants them ribbed all the way down too the heal so it’s taking a bit more time than normal. And I haven’t really been working on them solidly.

So what else’s has been going on? So yeah I told you about dad. I think that is the most eventful thing that’s happened. So yeah had knitting at weekend, we’ve had a trip to Bury and nowt else.

I went to Clark’s the week before knitting started up again to get some wool for a shawl for mum and som sock wool fore mum and dad. I’m still doing the first bit of the first sock. So I’ve got somethingto keep me occupied.

So a couple of weeks ago I talked about a new hobby. Zentangle and sanntangle it’s all about drawing different patterns. There are a few other things involved but it is very relaxing and mindful.

I suppose I should show you some of the work I’ve done. So here you go:

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So the first tile I did was from the Sanntangle book. The rest are from the Zentangle primer. I’m just working my way through that at the moment. At the moment it’s just doing individual patterns so I’m using that as an excuse to practice the designs and learn the new ones to me.

Once I’ve finished the Primer I’ll start going through the Sanntangle books.I also have some blank greeting cards that I can use and fill for birthdays and stuff. From working on the paper tiles it gave me an idea to work on something else. A few weeks ago I made a blue face mask:

That face mask is ok and I’ve amused it a few times. The main problem is that where I wear it and breath it steams up my glasses. Which if you know, is really annoying. Try pushing yourself round in a wheel chair with steamed up glasses. It’s not easy.

After that wonderful experience I fixed I need a better mask that is a bit bigger. I wanted to do some tangle work and this is what I came up with:

I think it looks cool and I can safely say no one else will have one. I’ve also got some stencils for the Sanntangle works that I can use for cards or other things. Yesterday on our trip to Bury I bought a chest. I’m going to use it as a tangle chest. It’s blank at the moment but it will be decorated with different patterns..

So today I’m happy but down. My MS is playing up today, I’m sore, in lots of pains, achy, dizzy and to top it all off I’ve got a headache.

I want to point out that Disney plus is awesome. I’m loving it. I’m working way through some classic films. Yesterday I watched 20000 leagues under the sea. It’s full of old programmes like The Gummy Bears. It’s all of the episodes and series so you can binge watch. I’m also working through Gargoyles. I used to love it when I was younger so there is a bit of reliving my youth through TV programs and films.

Right at the moment I’m fighting to keep my eyes open so I’m off for a nap. See you all soon.

Love and light.

Return the map. it will bring you great danger.

That’s something for the film nerds. Guess the film? I’ll let you know later if I remember. I’m trying something that I haven’t tried for a long time. I’m using my laptop to write a post. oooooooooooo, it’s a bit weird using a normal keyboard and not the tiny one on my phone.

You’ve probably seen my last post about being a spaz. If not go have a look Click Here.

If you haven’t read that the next bit might not make sense. But then most things in life don’t make sense. So yeah, dad and Zoe had an argument with some cows. Zoe ran away and dad lost. So today he got a letter saying that its no official that he has broken a bone in his leg. He has to go to a fracture clinic or something. No idea if that’s now an online thing or he has to physically go somewhere.

So this house has turned into a demicy dodery not right house. I’ve got MS and mobility issues among other things, dad is battered and bruised with a broken leg and mum has issues with asthma. So not quite sure if we need to walk round with bells or something to warn people we’re coming. What do you think? Do we need bells?

So yesterday and today I’ve been doing some MS work. Sorting out letters to go to the members about having sessions on Zoom. If we can’;t meet up in person we will do it online. Blurgh to social isolation

There are some people I know that have had COVID 19. No idea why I put that in capital letters. It makes it seem that it’s something really serious and scary. Well, I suppose it is serious and scary. I know I’ve been ill, but no idea if it was this dreaded disease or something else. Being honest though, I don’t really want to know.

Anyway back to the things I’ve been doing. I was sorting out the letters for the MS group. that seemed to turn into something bigger than it should have been. Mainly my fault though, so it wasn’t just a letter, it became an email with poster attachments and some coding in there too. Well the email bit was fine with no issues, the problem came with the physical stuff. I thought is would just be a straight forward type up a letter, print it out with the posters then stick it all in the envelope.

Sounds simple right? WRONG, again my own fault entirely. People kept saying that others haven’t been getting letters and stuff. It turns out that the people that haven’t had anything aren’t on the list I was using. Again no major issue, just print of some more letters and a few more envelopes. Dickhead over here decided to build a data base, add the missing people, then sort out mail merge with names on the letters and address details on the envelopes. Yeah, so it became a bigger job. But if I have to do any letters again it should be a million times easier.

SO the letter bit printed of fine with no issues, so did the envelopes. the problem came with the posters. I made them online with some official MS software so they were all branded and stuff. I decided as the letters needed to go out like now that I would download them so they could be attached to the email and I could just print them off to go in the envelopes. So, as i said the electronic stuff was fine, the letters and envelopes, all good.

I thought to save some paper I’ll turn the two posters into one then shrink it down so I can put 2 on to one sheet of paper. I could not get that working. I just could not get 2 on one sheet of paper no matter what I tried. So I gave up on that idea and just thought sod it, I’ll print them out. Don’t know if you’ve noticed or not but the MS Society uses a lot of orange. That’s fine electronically but not for printers. I managed to get 5 printed before the printer said NO, after the 5th one the colours and stuff went all stupid because the printer ran out of the Magenta ink. The ink cartridges are all colour mixed so the blue and yellow are fine, just not the pink. So after some frantic job cancelling on the laptop and the printer ii had to go another way. Out comes the good old trusty powerpoint. Managed to get some simple plain black text and two copies on one sheet. so now the letters are all done, everything printed and everything in an envelope. The next thing that needs doing is the envelopes need sealing (I got the tape ones, no licking) stamps adding and putting in the post box.

So while I’ve been doing that lot I’ve had some tunes playing through Spotify and YouTube. It’s been an interesting mix, everything from George Michael through some country (Hunter Hayes, Blake Shelton and Josh Turner), some cheesey hits (love shack, B52’s) some Pentatonix and some Todrick Hall.

The other day I watched Behind the Curtain with Todrick Hall on Netflix. Its a film/documentary about him planning a tour and an album. Straight Outta Oz, while watching the video somethings did hit home. He talks about growing up and coming out. The music he wrote is all based on his experiences and the thing he went through while he was growing up and in his professional life.

I said I did shed a tear while watching, the music and the things he talked about rang true for me and I know that the things he said are true for a lot of people. I really would recommend either listening to the album or watching the videos. I’ve tried to embed the video from YouTube below, it just looks like random code at the moment so no idea if its worked or not.

From the film and videos I’ve developed a bit of a crush on Todrick Hall, swoon and fan myself from feeling the vapours (what ever the hell that means). There is a guy that plays his first boyfriend in the show and the videos, Jay Armstrong Johnson, a bit more swooning there too.

Wow, that was quite scary to admit that and put it on here. I know I’ve said before that I was gay but admitting about having a crush like that just seems like a big thing. It feels quite freeing and relieving to say something like that, its like another weight has been lifted.

So what else has been going on? I made tea last night and it was pasta bolognase. Tonight we had Lasagne, using the left overs from last night. I think it looked pretty good though.

I can’t think of anything else to talk about so I’ll leave it there. Oh yeah, the film the quote is from the film Time Bandits. Its what the supreme being says in Kevin’s bedroom near the beginning of the film.

Love and Light

What a fucking shit day.

I hate being a spaz! When things go wrong and there is absolutely nothing you can do. The anxiety kicks in and then the spasms and everything else start to rear it’s bloody ugly head.

Today dad had an argument with some cows and lost big time. He has a few broken ribs, a fractured leg, bruises everywhere and he’s covered head to toe in field and everything that goes with it. He’s been through A and E been patched up as best they can and he’s home now.

I only found out what had happened when I got a phone call from Katie asking if I was ok. Bear in mind at the time I had no idea what had happened. So I just answered “yeah I’m fine”. “What you asking for”? She then said “oh shit, you don’t know”.

Of course when that happens the anxiety kicks in with full force. Katie told me that dad had been trampled by some cows and mum had taken him to hospital. she also said that Zoe was missing. I was in my room at the time with the TV blasting and the aircon running so I couldn’t hear much.

She gave me the full story telling me not to worry, she was on her way home and that there were people out looking for the dog. Being told not to worry doesn’t really help the anxiety, if anything it makes it worse. She also told me that I couldn’t go out and help look for the dog because I can’t walk that far. So there I am stuck at home on my own panicking about dad and the dog.

All I could do was potter around the house asking the birds in the trees to go and look for Zoe and tell her to come home. So I’m sat in a chair on the drive in the blaring hot sun hopping and praying for Zoe to potter round the corner.

Of course that didn’t happen.

After what felt like 6 hours of not knowing what the hell was going on with dad or the dog I got another call from Katie. She told me that the dog had been found and was safe with some other people. That gave me some relief knowing she was ok. She also said that her and mum we’re going to pick up the dog and would be home soon.

They came back with the dog and had to go back out to call off the search and pick up Katie’s car. While they were out all I could do was cuddle Zoe and tell her how scared and upset I was about what had happened.

A little while later mum got the call to go and pick up dad from the hospital. So he’s home, he’s battered, bruised and been through the wars but he’s back. So please spare a thought for him and send him some healing.

Anyway back to hating being a spaz. It is totally crap when there is nothing you can do to help and all you can do is sit at home and worry.

I was tempted to get my wheelchair out and try and help. But doing that isn’t the easiest of things to do. So getting the chair outside isn’t easy, then I’d have to push myself up the street. That in itself is no mean feat and after that I’d have to cross the road and start my own search. In a wheelchair it isn’t easy getting about, and the area I was told she went missing in is cobbled. Cobbles and wheelchairs do not mix.

So stuck at home on my jack jones worrying and panicking, not knowing what’s going on. Is dad ok? Where is the dog and is she ok?

So that is why I hate being a spaz. Dad is home and on the mend, he’s now had chance to wash away the field and Zoe is there looking after him and everyone else.

Love and light.

So another week down and another step along the path of life.

What to talk about today?

Well at least I’m a hell of a lot better now than I was last week. Don’t know what it was but I wasn’t right and it was the worst I’ve been for a long while. But better now so onwards and upwards.

I believe it’s due to get warmer later in the week, woo chuffing hoo. I can’t say I’m looking forward to it in the slightest. I do know though that the aircon will be running on overtime. I do seem to be over cooking at the moment and most of Sunday it was raining.

I did have a bit of an issue yesterday though. I really struggled to stay awake. I kept losing time. One minute it was 12:00 and then the next thing I know it was 2. Let’s just say I must have needed it. I know I need some more sleep than I’m getting at the moment but if I go for an afternoon nap I just feel guilty. It seems wrong and that I’m being naughty if I go back to sleep after my morning alarm and pills. I’m sure I’ll get over it though, needs must and all that.

I’ve said it in the past about being slightly addicted (maybe more so) to the creat and craft TV channel. I have absolutely no idea why especially when most of the time the crafting they show is card making and that’s something I don’t do yet. Maybe in the future, who knows anything could happen.

I do have a bit of a new hobby though. There are a couple of different versions out there and the one I’m learning is called Sanntangle. It’s an offshoot of Zentangle, and it’s all about drawing different patterns on art tiles. I’ve only filled in one tile so far but I’ve used some stencils and used them to draw out some shapes and filled them with patterns.

It is quite relaxing, to just sit there drawing patterns.

I said last time that I finished my cardigan. I have been struggling to find a new project. I see something I want to do and get as far as the first step then get bored and sidetracked. My sister has asked me to make a jumper for her. It’s the Buckbeak jumper from the Harry Potter knitting magic book. I’m more than happy to do it for her I’m just waiting for her payday and the wool. When she gets paid we can go shopping and get the bits I need. The pictures in the book look good so it should keep me busy and out of trouble. There are a few other things in the book that I like the look of but I don’t have the yarn to do them. I’ll get Katie’s jumper done first then move on to the other bits for me. (That’s if I don’t get sidetracked and find something else to do).

My car is going, His Royal Cuntiness is going. I had it for over 3 years. Wouldn’t mind but only managed to drive it for 6 months before all the MS troubles started. I didn’t lose my licence for another 18 months but I made the decision (along with my anxiety, confusion and dizziness) not to drive. I was scared shitless that I’d either kill someone or myself. The last thing I wanted to happen was to be on my own somewhere and have a confusion panicky dizzy attack and be stuck or cause an accident.

Even if I didn’t stop driving I don’t think the insurance company would have paid out if something happened.

So a new car is on order through the motability scheme, it’s been on order for a good few months now. We ordered the car and then the lockdown happened. I did do a post about it Click here (if you want).

So I think that’s about it so

Love and light

Finally after like a million years of work it’s finished. All done and dusted, the main issue now is what should I do next.

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I know I’ve been going on about that cardigan jumper thing for ever now but I’m really happy that it’s finished. Problem is that because it’s been so warm I’ve only been able to wear it/use it for about 5 minutes. The time will come when I’m able to get full use out of it. For now it can just sit comfortably in my wardrobe.

Just as a put me on project I’ve made an octopus. It’s a shower/bath sponge thing. It has a knitted head and crocheted legs and it’s bright orange.

Another thing I’ve done is hand sew a face mask

So yeah, that’s about all there is to say about that. The stitching may be a bit messey but I’ve done it.

I did plan on having like a massive cardigan reveal last weekend but I just gave up trying to finish it and get all the ends sewn it. But it’s finished now. Weaving in the ends seemed to take forever, there were loads of different ends to sort out, just count all the different patches of colour then times it be two. That’s how many ends I had to sort. Millions and billions and trillions.

Since the last post I’ve had a bit of a play about with my site. What do you think of the new look? If you like it, woo hoo. if not sod ya. So yeah, had a tweak with the look and feel. I’ve changed a couple of bits round and updated other things. I’m so thankful for WordPress and how easy it is to use. If it wasn’t for WP I probably wouldn’t have a site.

Along time ago in a galaxy not too far away (take 3 lefts and go to the end of the road) I did understand stuff about coding and websites and how the back end of stuff worked but unfortunately, not anymore. Not sure if that’s because of the MS or just because I forgot, but who really cares.

So big up to WordPress and thanks for making things easy.

What else has been going on? Well my sister and her other half have fallen pray to the dreaded lurgy. They’re all on the mend though and should be back to normal soon.

I’m not well at the moment either. No idea what’s wrong though. Mum and dad seem to think it’s a summer cold. Either way I’ve caught it of them. It is the most ill I’ve been for a while though. What ever it is it’s aggravating my symptoms especially the pain.

Hands being sore is a bit weird, it’s like having something stuck through the heel of my hand going up into my arm, not nice. The pain everywhere else isn’t that great either.

So sod you pain, I’m off now to find something else to work on. It might be a bit of crochet or some needle felting I’m not sure but I’ll find something to do.

Love and light

So I think it’s time for another update check in thing. Right now I’m not feeling that great. I feel like someone is is kicking ten tons of shit out of my stomach. I have no idea what’s caused it but something has.

It’s something that happens every now and then and I haven’t been able to figure out if there is a trigger. It just happens randomly so when it happens it happens and I just need to put up with it.

So other things that have been happening. I finally found a recipe for hand cream that works well:

• 60ml Jojoba oil
• 50g Cocoa Butter
• 35g Shea Butter
• 20g Coconut Oil
• 10g Bees Wax
• 10ml Macadamia Nut oil
• 10ml Vitamin E oil
• 10ml Evening Primrose Oil
• 10ml Rose Hip oil
• 5ml Glycerin

Then it’s time to add the essential oils:

• 15 to 30 drops Tea Tree
• 15 drops Eucalyptus
• 10 drops Lavender
• 10 drops Benzoin
• 10 drops Myrrh
• 10 drops Frankincense
• 5 drops Clary Sage
• 4 drops Turmeric
• 4 drops Hyssop
• 4 drops Cedarwood Atlas

Melt the butters, coconut oil and beeswax together in a double boiler.

Reduce heat and add the oils and glycerin.

Remove from heat and let it start to cool but not set.

Mix in the essential oils and put it in pots to set.

You only need to use little bits at a time but use as often as you want.

I named this hand cream Dead Men’s Toes. I have absolutely no idea why but while I was making it the bit from Hocus Pocus where they were making the life potion was running through my head and Dean Men’s Toes stuck and just felt like the right name for my concoction. It’s not whipped up or anything and it looks a bit gloopy in the pot but I think that just fits with the name. It can be used for everything. The ingredients in it make it good for the skin and then you get the added benefit of the essential oils which also help.

The Essential oils make it work as an antibacterial, anti fungal, and anti microbial (big words for me then- copy and paste works wonders) and the other essential oils help with skin renewal and healing and they all have a wide range of benefits. *

So what else has been going on? Well craft wise I’m still no further on with my cardigan. The second border still needs doing and it needs to be sew up and then ends woven in.

I have done a few other things though. I made a little doll for my mum, she wasn’t well and had to spend sometime in hospital. I’ll go through that later. I wanted it to go with the rest of the stuff that was taken to hospital for their stay but I wasn’t finished in time. But here it is:

The other thing I was doing was making a toy sheep for another friend of the family that has had a mini stroke. I only managed to get it finished this evening:

The fur/wool/fleece or what ever you want to call it took the longest and used the best part of a ball of wool/yarn. The pattern is for a merino sheep. I thought about getting some merino wool to use but that stopped there as it would have taken an age to get here and would be really expensive.

Tats about it for craft, I have a few other things lined up but my main focus now is getting the cardigan finished. I will and must do it. I’m determined to make sure it doesn’t end up as a half finished project.

So yeah last week my mother being as inconsiderate as she is decided that she wasn’t well. Well she was feeling a bit off and didn’t want to be a bother but she was packed up and sent to hospital.

I was asleep when this happened and heard bits and pieces but only found out when I finally managed to drag my arse out of bed.

Dad being the constant professional and superstar that he is told me properly what had gone on and where mum was. She went in to a and e with yet another chest infection. I panicked a bit thinking oh my god she has the Ebolacaronaplauge virus that’s going around. But dad said he and the other hospital people and the COVID specialist were pretty sure it wasn’t but the process needed to be followed to do a test for it just to make sure. The test came back saying she didn’t have it so phew sigh of relief from that. From what I was told she was pumped with antibiotics and blown up with oxygen and spent the night there. She came home the next day.

When she came home her arms were black and blue from where they tried and failed to take blood. she’s a bit of a pain in the arse when it comes to blood tests. She doesn’t bleed and the doctors, nurses and other blood people always have issues with her. But she’s home now and taking it easy(ish).

She is turning into a pain in the arse though because she says she feels guilty saying she isn’t well and something is wrong with her while I’m sat here with brain leprosy and all the fun that it entails. I keep telling her that it doesn’t matter and that if she’s not well that she should get the help and support she needs and not worry about me. Yes I’m in pain most of the time, my emotions are fecked up and I’m dizzy. But I would rather you get sorted and right. I’ll still be the same tomorrow and by you worrying and stressing about me and not yourself makes me stress and worry about you even more which can then aggravate my symptoms and make me worse. But you’re home and sod what the government say, I’m gonna give you hugs, love, reiki and what ever else I can.

Another thing that happened is that I had a birthday over the weekend. I’m now 37. Woooooooo, not. I already feel about 90 with everything that’s going on. I did have a nice day though. I even got a birthday cake. It was nice relaxed and chilled out. I even sat outside with mum for a bit. Well it was about 5 minutes at most, I struggle to cope with the heat as it aggravates things and then you have the hey fever and all that crap so a swift retreat to my room with the aircon blasting. All is good.

There are probably my other things that have happened aswell but I can’t remember them right now so they can’t be that important.

Oh yeah, I’m supposed to be allowed out of the house now for an hour. I think that’s what it is but yeah I’ll go out at some point. I do think though that some people in the legs shielding group will be scared to go out. It’s been made out that if you leave the house you’ll get jumped and battered by this virus. I’m sure it is t like that at all but it does make you think.

Another thing that I feel I should talk about is the incident that happened in America. A guy has been killed by a police officer. The police officer was beeping on his neck and carried on kneeling even after the guy said he couldn’t breath. This really does take the piss. From what I’ve heard he was arrested and and then murdered because of some fake money. The police in any country are supposed to be there to protect people. Yes there are some people out to cause harm, trouble and to break the law. These people should be dealt with accordingly but under no circumstances should these people be murdered by the people that are supposed to be the protectors. Yes accidents happen but this was no accident and the resulting fury that this has caused should send a shockwave through to the establishment straight to the top. The people protesting this issue are not terrorists, they are normal people like us that are pissed off and have had enough of the excessive force and underhanded methods that are being used by the people we trust to protect us and our laws. This situation should never have happened and it is something that needs to be addressed and eradicated in every country in the world. Every human being had a right to life, light, love and protection no matter the colour of their skin, the religion they follow or not or the country they are from.

I strongly believe that we are all connected and that we are all one. The brotherhood of man, this has been broken by one person who murdered George Floyd. The actions taken by this police man are beyond reproach. I think there is a law in America where this happened that if someone is killed during a crime taking place that everyone involved is guilty of murder. I do not know the ins and outs of law here or in the US but the other officers involved should also be convicted of murder as they did not step in and stop the murder taking place.

So Love everyone, we are all connected in this tangled web we call life. If you are going to make ripples make sure they are of love, light and positivity.

Love and Light.

*not sure why but feel like I should put a disclaimer in that Dead Men’s Toes is not a miraculous cure all and that you should seek help from a medical professional if the need arises.