So I think it’s time for another update check in thing. Right now I’m not feeling that great. I feel like someone is is kicking ten tons of shit out of my stomach. I have no idea what’s caused it but something has.

It’s something that happens every now and then and I haven’t been able to figure out if there is a trigger. It just happens randomly so when it happens it happens and I just need to put up with it.

So other things that have been happening. I finally found a recipe for hand cream that works well:

• 60ml Jojoba oil
• 50g Cocoa Butter
• 35g Shea Butter
• 20g Coconut Oil
• 10g Bees Wax
• 10ml Macadamia Nut oil
• 10ml Vitamin E oil
• 10ml Evening Primrose Oil
• 10ml Rose Hip oil
• 5ml Glycerin

Then it’s time to add the essential oils:

• 15 to 30 drops Tea Tree
• 15 drops Eucalyptus
• 10 drops Lavender
• 10 drops Benzoin
• 10 drops Myrrh
• 10 drops Frankincense
• 5 drops Clary Sage
• 4 drops Turmeric
• 4 drops Hyssop
• 4 drops Cedarwood Atlas

Melt the butters, coconut oil and beeswax together in a double boiler.

Reduce heat and add the oils and glycerin.

Remove from heat and let it start to cool but not set.

Mix in the essential oils and put it in pots to set.

You only need to use little bits at a time but use as often as you want.

I named this hand cream Dead Men’s Toes. I have absolutely no idea why but while I was making it the bit from Hocus Pocus where they were making the life potion was running through my head and Dean Men’s Toes stuck and just felt like the right name for my concoction. It’s not whipped up or anything and it looks a bit gloopy in the pot but I think that just fits with the name. It can be used for everything. The ingredients in it make it good for the skin and then you get the added benefit of the essential oils which also help.

The Essential oils make it work as an antibacterial, anti fungal, and anti microbial (big words for me then- copy and paste works wonders) and the other essential oils help with skin renewal and healing and they all have a wide range of benefits. *

So what else has been going on? Well craft wise I’m still no further on with my cardigan. The second border still needs doing and it needs to be sew up and then ends woven in.

I have done a few other things though. I made a little doll for my mum, she wasn’t well and had to spend sometime in hospital. I’ll go through that later. I wanted it to go with the rest of the stuff that was taken to hospital for their stay but I wasn’t finished in time. But here it is:

The other thing I was doing was making a toy sheep for another friend of the family that has had a mini stroke. I only managed to get it finished this evening:

The fur/wool/fleece or what ever you want to call it took the longest and used the best part of a ball of wool/yarn. The pattern is for a merino sheep. I thought about getting some merino wool to use but that stopped there as it would have taken an age to get here and would be really expensive.

Tats about it for craft, I have a few other things lined up but my main focus now is getting the cardigan finished. I will and must do it. I’m determined to make sure it doesn’t end up as a half finished project.

So yeah last week my mother being as inconsiderate as she is decided that she wasn’t well. Well she was feeling a bit off and didn’t want to be a bother but she was packed up and sent to hospital.

I was asleep when this happened and heard bits and pieces but only found out when I finally managed to drag my arse out of bed.

Dad being the constant professional and superstar that he is told me properly what had gone on and where mum was. She went in to a and e with yet another chest infection. I panicked a bit thinking oh my god she has the Ebolacaronaplauge virus that’s going around. But dad said he and the other hospital people and the COVID specialist were pretty sure it wasn’t but the process needed to be followed to do a test for it just to make sure. The test came back saying she didn’t have it so phew sigh of relief from that. From what I was told she was pumped with antibiotics and blown up with oxygen and spent the night there. She came home the next day.

When she came home her arms were black and blue from where they tried and failed to take blood. she’s a bit of a pain in the arse when it comes to blood tests. She doesn’t bleed and the doctors, nurses and other blood people always have issues with her. But she’s home now and taking it easy(ish).

She is turning into a pain in the arse though because she says she feels guilty saying she isn’t well and something is wrong with her while I’m sat here with brain leprosy and all the fun that it entails. I keep telling her that it doesn’t matter and that if she’s not well that she should get the help and support she needs and not worry about me. Yes I’m in pain most of the time, my emotions are fecked up and I’m dizzy. But I would rather you get sorted and right. I’ll still be the same tomorrow and by you worrying and stressing about me and not yourself makes me stress and worry about you even more which can then aggravate my symptoms and make me worse. But you’re home and sod what the government say, I’m gonna give you hugs, love, reiki and what ever else I can.

Another thing that happened is that I had a birthday over the weekend. I’m now 37. Woooooooo, not. I already feel about 90 with everything that’s going on. I did have a nice day though. I even got a birthday cake. It was nice relaxed and chilled out. I even sat outside with mum for a bit. Well it was about 5 minutes at most, I struggle to cope with the heat as it aggravates things and then you have the hey fever and all that crap so a swift retreat to my room with the aircon blasting. All is good.

There are probably my other things that have happened aswell but I can’t remember them right now so they can’t be that important.

Oh yeah, I’m supposed to be allowed out of the house now for an hour. I think that’s what it is but yeah I’ll go out at some point. I do think though that some people in the legs shielding group will be scared to go out. It’s been made out that if you leave the house you’ll get jumped and battered by this virus. I’m sure it is t like that at all but it does make you think.

Another thing that I feel I should talk about is the incident that happened in America. A guy has been killed by a police officer. The police officer was beeping on his neck and carried on kneeling even after the guy said he couldn’t breath. This really does take the piss. From what I’ve heard he was arrested and and then murdered because of some fake money. The police in any country are supposed to be there to protect people. Yes there are some people out to cause harm, trouble and to break the law. These people should be dealt with accordingly but under no circumstances should these people be murdered by the people that are supposed to be the protectors. Yes accidents happen but this was no accident and the resulting fury that this has caused should send a shockwave through to the establishment straight to the top. The people protesting this issue are not terrorists, they are normal people like us that are pissed off and have had enough of the excessive force and underhanded methods that are being used by the people we trust to protect us and our laws. This situation should never have happened and it is something that needs to be addressed and eradicated in every country in the world. Every human being had a right to life, light, love and protection no matter the colour of their skin, the religion they follow or not or the country they are from.

I strongly believe that we are all connected and that we are all one. The brotherhood of man, this has been broken by one person who murdered George Floyd. The actions taken by this police man are beyond reproach. I think there is a law in America where this happened that if someone is killed during a crime taking place that everyone involved is guilty of murder. I do not know the ins and outs of law here or in the US but the other officers involved should also be convicted of murder as they did not step in and stop the murder taking place.

So Love everyone, we are all connected in this tangled web we call life. If you are going to make ripples make sure they are of love, light and positivity.

Love and Light.

*not sure why but feel like I should put a disclaimer in that Dead Men’s Toes is not a miraculous cure all and that you should seek help from a medical professional if the need arises.