So what to say about this week and where to begin.

I’ve not been one to follow the movement of planets and stuff. This is mainly down to the fact that I don’t think I’ve been impacted by them before. But, Mercury is in retrograde. Being honest it one of those things that I’ve never looked into. But it means that where the planet is it appears to be spinning backwards. I don’t think planets change their direction of orbit or spin but at the moment it just looks like that’s what it’s doing. It’s doing this in Pieces. This lasts for three weeks and it’s supposed to mess about with different things like electronics, contracts and emotions. My emotions have been completely off this last week. I know I forgot to take some pills last week but I’m back on track now so it shouldn’t be that. Everything emotional and anxiety wise has just been booming this week.

The other day my anxiety decided to rear it’s head. I was sat at home watching TV, my body decided I was scared, and I had to curl up and try to hide behind some cushions on the couch. I ain’t the smallest of people and the cushions aren’t that big. Hiding wise they aren’t really that good. I started crying and just didn’t know why or what to do. I was lucky though, I was only curled up for 20 minutes. My mum and dad got home after that and started to try and sort me out. It took another 10 minutes but things got better. I managed to calm down and get myself sorted out. My mum is amazing at getting me sorted.

Saturday night was another night when I was feeling off. I wasn’t doing anything and I just felt everything was happening to fast. The world was spinning to fast and I wanted to get off. This time though I managed to calm myself down.

If this Mercury retrograde thing is causing this it needs to bigger off. I’m using crystals though to help me. I made myself some little crystals survival bags to get through this retrograde thing.

Different tigers eyes, Rose Quartz, Labradorite, amethyst, clear quartz, charoite, lunar rose quartz, Luna quartz and a bit of jasper. I made another one to with other things in it but I can’t remember what’s in that one. (Shit memory). The crystals are helping. So that’s good.

I’ve been having issues with noise recently. Partly sensory overload and partly anxiety. One seems to set the other off. People just being loud have been making me angry, getting me worked up and setting off the good old anxiety. I’ve been using my ear plugs quite a bit. They only partly help, they dull down the noises which makes them easier to deal with but don’t block it out. It’s normally loud people that have in your face conversations. People talking normally don’t bother me. Loud people that just make noise for the sake of it really set me off, kids being kids aren’t great either. I know the noise they make is just them being them but I really struggle with it. Again things started this afternoon because of a loud person. I was scared, juddery and just didn’t like it and had to get away from it. It’s hard in public, you don’t want to start crying and shaking, you don’t want to make a fit of yourself because you can’t help it. I just had to hide.

Knitting wise I’ve been trying to knit some oven gloves. I got a pattern then realised it didn’t have a thumb so gave up with that. I then decided to follow a normal mitten pattern but I doubled it. That started coming out as too big, so another one I gave up with. I then went on to search the internet for another patter. Could I find one. It would have been easier to find rocking horse shit. The only things I could find were crochet patterns. I found a video on YouTube for a crochet oven glove. I partly used that to figure out how to shape it but as for the rest of it I just made it up. But know I have made an oven glove.

It’s a bit big round the bottom but it works and does the job so I’m not really that bothered. I just need to make another one now so there is a pair. I started the second one earlier. I’ll finish it at some point but I’m not rushing.

Today I decided to start a new project. Now I’m making a large alpaca. So that should work out well and I’ll put pictures up of that when I’m done.

I got a few other toy patterns too. One for aliens and the other for hand puppets. Again more pics of those will come when and if I eventually do them.

I did a healing session earlier too. That seemed to go well, it helped me feel better and I know it will help the people the healing was directed at. It was just setting up an event on Facebook, people could add names to a list and anyone can help with the healing, they just focus on sending it to the people on the list.

Friday was one hell of a day for the world. New Zealand and that monster that decided to shoot innocent people. It’s disgusting and I’m appalled it happened. Why do people have so much hate in them that they have to go and do these things. Something else I found out and remembered yesterday that we now have family in Christchurch too. They weren’t caught up in any of it, thank god, but they will be shook up by it.

Anyway sending out love and light to everyone and ask you all to do the same.

Well I’ve had a bit of a dodgy weekend. Friday night was going well. I went to an AGM at the local spiritualist church. That was a bit boring but AGMs normally are. After that I did end up getting a bit of a history lesson and tour of the building and that was cool. But come bed time I was in absolute agony. Nearly everything hurt. It was only Saturday I noticed why. Being the bright spark I am I forgot to take my medication on Friday night.

I have learnt from this, I now know that my pills help me so much. Saturday I was completely off. My anxiety ran rampant and pain wasn’t great either. I also realised that opiates can help loads too. The pain was that bad that the Tranadol had to come out. It helped a bit with the pain but not much. It took some of the edge off it. I did realise that Amytriptaline helps me loads. It helps a bit with the pain and also keeps emotions and stuff like that in check too.

It’s so hard to explain how I was on Saturday. It was just a really really really bad day. Everything was completely off and I struggled like hell to get through.

Yesterday wasn’t that great either. I did remember my meds though on Saturday night. It was another painful day but that wasn’t all. I decided to pull back my knitting project and start that again so that’s one thing. During knitting it also came up that I was a psychic and a medium. I expected that when that happened that I would be burnt at the stake. That didn’t happen and people seemed really interested. So that was nice.

When it came to the evening I finished the last lot of pills that I had and no more we’re ready or set up. Going through the pull box and starting to set up some for today mum realised that we didn’t have all the pills that I needed or asked for on the prescription. So that stressed me out completely. I just got lost and had no idea what to do or what I was doing. Mum managed to calm me down.

Today mum made calls to find out what had happened. Again being stressed out and worried. Mum managed to sort me and the drug problem out. So just waiting for them now.

Pain is still always around and it’s becoming an old friend that I’m starting to accept and just put up with.

Anyway enough of me waffling.

Love and light.

Labradorite for me is a stone of clairvoyance. It helps you to see things clearly and properly. It will help you see into the heart of any situation.

Labradorite is also a stone of magic and can help you connect to the power of source (all that is). It can be used to help you focus and channel source energy and add it to any spell, prayer or ritual you’re doing (that’s if you do anything like that).

I’ve found that this crystal can also give you a boost of energy if you’re feeling drained and depleted. It’s not one to fully recharge your batteries but just for that extra boost.

Clear Quartz the stone with a million and one uses. This stone is amazing and can literally do anything. The is the only stone that can be programmed to take on any task. Currently I have a piece of clear quartz programmed to draw out and take away pain. I get a lot of pain due to my MS and the programmed stone helps me loads.

It’s simple enough to programme a piece, all you have to do is tell it what you want it to do. Some people will say you have to follow a set ritual and the moon has to be in the right phase and it has to be a set day and at a set time. Personally I think that’s just a load of crap. Just ask it to do what you want it to and it will.

A programmed piece of quartz can take the place of any crystal you don’t have when making up a grid. Clear Quartz points are excellent at focusing and directing energy. Normally if I’m doing a crystal healing session I’ll put a grid of quartz points around the client to focus and direct the healing energy. I’ve also used them round grids to do the same thing.

Just looking at the crystal brings clear and focused thoughts and can be a great help if you have trouble concentrating.

I’ve had a crystal that I’ve been using as my crystal comfort blanket for a good few years now. If I don’t have it with me I feel lost, alone and naked. I hate not having it with me. My parents even call it my pet rock as I’m not normally with out it.

This is my pet rock. It may be a little bartered and bruised but it helps me so much I can’t t explain it.

As the stone has a million different uses there are loads of different types of clear quartz formations and they all have different specialties. One day I may start a list about these but that’s not for now.

Woooooooooo

I don’t believe what I’ve just done.

I have just done my first ever live video. I did it on Keystone Crystals. I did what I call a Psychic Sunday. Normally I do it all by message and typing but this time it was a live video stream. I opened up and passed on messages from the people in spirit that came through.

From a spirit point of view it was quite busy. Lots of spirit people wanting to come through for a chat. Most of them though just the normal nosey sort of people that want to see what’s going on and just want to say hi.

As that was the case for most of the people I needed to be pretty stern and tell them to go away if they didn’t have a message. I have absolutely nothing idea now what I said or who came through. I just don’t remember. Partly because of my rubbish memory and partly because when I’m doing spirit work it just comes through me so I don’t retain the information.

Now I feel like I’m buzzing mainly because I’ve done something I’ve never done before and for the fact that I did it and my anxiety and stuff didn’t come in to it. The anxiety has started again now but I’m beating it down because I’m now in a good mood because of what I’ve done.

The pain was there all the time but it didn’t bother me. Working with spirit generally makes me feel good and helps block out the pain.

The one thing I do remember from the session is that a lovely old lady came through. And the amount of love and support that freely flowed from her was amazing. I have a feeling that she came through for someone that wasn’t on the video. I now have to decide if I should message the person or not. I’m not sure if the person I feel the message is for is in the right place to hear it.

Anyway I’ll be off I just felt I need to write about what I’ve just done. I’m buzzing.

Love and light

Amethyst is probably one of the first crystal you worked with weather you new it or not. It is normally one of the first crystals that is picked up at the start of a collection weather for healing or not. Amethyst is known by some as a master healer as it can help with so many different things.

This is an amazing stone when working on sleep matters. This stone can help you sleep deeply and soundly. It’s a good stone for protection as it just instils a feeling of being safe, supported and comforted. Just having a piece of amethyst in the room can help clean the energy of the space by filling the room with energy and pushing out anything bad.

It is also a great third eye stone, it will energies and open this chakra and help you see things as the truly are on an energetic level.

For developing psychic abilities it will help keep thing going at a slow steady pace. It work very well to help heal headaches and migraines.

Black tourmaline is a great grounding and protection stone. It works wonders when it comes to energetic protection, when paired with Selenite it works even better.

Black tourmaline will absorb any negative energy so it will help draw out anything that needs healing.

This crystal will aid in psychic development by making sure you are grounded throughout the task in question. “You need to have your feet firmly planted on the ground before you can fly”.

If you place this crystal above your door it will absorb anything negative that try’s to come through it. It can also stop unwanted guests coming in.

So today I’ve decided to update the site a bit and connect it to Instagram and Facebook. I’ve no idea if it will work so this post is a bit of a test really to see what happens.

Over the next few days I’ll be doing a few more posts in the crystal section. Ive added a bit more info there, I’ve mentioned an amazing place to get crystals from and a form where you can suggest a crystal that needs a write up. I’ve no plans to make anymore major changes to the site though. I have got some crochet I need to get on with, so I may do some of that at some point.

I know I have to start with the knitting of over gloves and cloths though. I’ve had the cotton for them a couple of weeks now. My wool coffin is getting full so I could do with doing some knitting to get it down. I’m also working on a new pouch for some of my cards so I’ve got that to do too. The old bag they were in is an organza with fine stitching and it’s fallen apart. It has lasted a good couple of years though. So, it hasn’t done badly.

Lunar Rose Quartz or Lunar Rose for short is a very powerful crystal for the heart. It has all the qualities of Rose Quartz but these are amplified, even more so under the light of the moon.

It is a very loving and calming stone that helps to promote self love, self acceptance and self realisation.

It will help bring about compassion in the user or when used in a situation. This stone will bring compassion and love to situations where these thing wouldn’t normally be seen. Due to the qualities of this stone it is an excellent stone to help in resolving all forms of conflict and can help find and achieve a level ground or starting point upon which a fruitful engagement can begin.

At the pain clinic. I was there on Monday working with the pain physio. I explained that since doing the exercises he suggest my pain has increased. I said I was working through it and pushing myself as I’m sure someone said that I’d have to go through it before I got the benefits from it. It was a simple exercise of just standing up and sitting down. He said right if it’s causing you so much pain and you’re reaching for tramadol (which I was) a lot more than normal then we need to scale back that exercise and go for something different.

So the new exercise is simply sitting down and raising my leg. But I have one of those resistance band round my leg so I’m pulling against that too.

Seems simple and is supposed to be less painful. When o did it during the session there was no pain during it. As we were leaving the pain started again. I’ll keep it up and hopefully things will get easier and less painful.

I had a strange day yesterday. It was a mixed bag, there were ups and downs. Pain, sorry and joy, there were even times where people were shot down and that was great to see.

So the day didn’t start off early. Well days don’t for me. I am not a morning person. At all.

I got up and got moving. I checked Facebook. The normal things for me really. On Facebook I saw a post from a tattoo and piercing shop saying they had some new crystal piercing jewellery. I’ve wanted some crystal jewellery for my tragus for ages. There were a couple of other bits I wanted from Bury too. A note book, some pens, a hair colour and some bobbles. Not much really.

So I went into Bury with my mum, she had an appointment to get her hearing aids fixed. We got there early to avoid the madness of school traffic that happens near home at pick up time. So we pottered about abit getting the bits I wanted and a couple of things she wanted to. Then came the time for her appointment and we took different paths. I said I was going to the tattoo shop to have a look and see what they had.

At the shop I saw the tragus jewellery I wanted and asked if the would fit it for me. I also asked about suggestions for other piercings (I think I’m addicted). The guy suggested a conch piercing and some jewellery to go with it. I thought “that sounds interesting”. So I got the tragus bits done and my mum was sat in the front of the shop waiting for me. O had my flower of life tattoo done there and the girl that did it remembered me and the work she’d done and asked to get a picture of it. So she did that and then me and mum went on our way.

I got as far as 20 yards from the shop and then I decided I wanted to get the piercings done the guy suggested. So off to the cash machine we went to get some money. It’s a cash only shop. The back we went. When we got back the piercing guy was stood outside having a smoke. So I waited a little while too and had a smoke with him. Well it was a vape not a smoke.

So I got my conches pierced. That was a strange experience. And partly it hurt like hell. That was only for a few second though then it didn’t hurt at all. That felt a bit strange. It didn’t even hurt when the jewellery went in. I think he said he used a blade rather than a cannula. I just though ok. He didn’t use any numbing spray or anything. The worst part about it was when the blade/needle thing went through. That’s what hurt but only for a couple of seconds. But if you’re interested here is a picture of my new hole and new jewellery:

It’s moonstone. I think it looks quite cool.

I got it done and my flower of life tattoo at Bravest Kids tattoo and piercing shop. Here is a pic of my tattoo if you haven’t already seen it.

Here is a link to the shop, the people are really friendly and there are some great artists:

http://www.bravestkidstattoo.com

Go have look.

One massive bonus and score for me today was that I went somewhere on my own. That is something that I have t done in a long time. Buts it’s probably why things affected me so much. I even did it in y wheelchair. Again another score. I had forgotten though how hilly and bumpy Bury is. It was nackering pushing myself round but

I did it!

While getting my conches pierced one of my new crystals fell out of my pocket and smashed on the floor. I was sad about that and it got me a bit worked up. On the way back to the car my mum wash pushing me and I could hear her huffing and puffing behind me so we had to stop so she could rest.

This was something else that wound me up a bit as I then started to worry about her and wanted to make sure she was ok. I love my mum and don’t want anything to happen to her.

We got home had tea and then we had to go out again. We had a team meeting formally a committee meeting with the MS people. I wasn’t expecting this to go too well as I had to report an issues earlier in the day to head office. But that’s didn’t go as badly as I expected. The other thing that happened during the meeting was someone was shot down, I’ve been waiting for so long for that to happen. I’m glad it happened though because this person was getting on my nerves and I could feel it boiling up and I know at some point I would snap and if that happened it wouldn’t be nice for anyone. But them being put in their place made me feel better.

Then my old friend decided it felt lonely and came out to play. Here I’m talking about pain. It started up again. I went through my bag looking for my painkillers but I’d done the extremely clever thing and left them at home. So I just grinned and beard it then had some when I got back. It didn’t help that I had my normal pains and the new piercings were a bit painful too. But I’ve been blasting them with Reiki, Karuna and other healing energies which has helped.

I did my exercises this morning. To feel the burn and the start of pain in my legs after only 7 leg raises is something. Hope the pain doesn’t stay long though. But I should be able to do more as time goes on.

Anyway I hope you are all good.

Love and light.