As most of you know by now my anxiety has been completely off recently. Tonight I was at the spiritualist church for the service. In the middle of the service while getting a message from the medium there was an almighty crash sound. It was so clear and loud. The best way to describe it was if you imagine the sound effect they use in films for crash, that was what it sounded like.

When this happened the medium stopped the message. The service ground to a halt for a little bit. While this was happened a couple of people rushed outside to see what had happened and to offer help. During the silence it started. I started shaking, panicking and crying and just had no idea what was happening. While shaking, panicking and crying I managed to leave the room.

I made it into the social room and I just couldn’t control myself. I started a complete and utter break down. Someone did come to check on me which was nice. The service carried on without me which is what you’d expect. Why should something stop just because of me? It shouldn’t.

I was in the social room while the service wrapped up. I heard them singing the last hymn and and having the last prayer. Then people started to come in the social room or go home. I still wasn’t right but was trying to put a brave face on it. It didn’t work. People caring and asking if I was ok set me off again. So at this point Liz and Pam took me back in the church to sit down and help me. They gave me some healing too which helped. I eventually started to feel better and calm down. So sent my mum a message to come and collect me. Which she did and she always helps me feel better and calmer.

Just before the service I decided to put out some of the crystals I had. Just laid them on the chair between me and Mandy. During the service we just pick a crystal up at random and just played with it in our hands feeling the energy of the crystal and the service. The strange thing that happened here was just before the noise of the accident Mandy picked up the lepidolite mini palm and started playing with that. What’s weird about it is that is a go to crystal for anxiety and panic attacks. Not sure if it was the spirits around us that drew her to that stone or what but I think it helped her loads.

The other things that have been going on during the week is knitting done a fair bit of that. I finished the second alpaca/lama. That looked cool and the person it was for (birthday gift) loved it and carried it round for the night of her party. Her party was a fancy dress do that I wasn’t really invited to but I hate crashed and had my mum and dad with me. I said it was a fancy dress party so I had a play with me make up and did this:

Messes up the side of my face and let my hair flow free. It gets curly if I don’t do anything after getting it wet. It just goes wild. So thought over all that it looked ok. I had to do my mums make up too. I don’t really think that went too well but have a look and see what you think. She was a pirate by the way, I messed up her hair with a bit of coconut oil and some hair putty and did some eyeliner and eye shadow. My dad looked cool too,

My sis on the other hand did Call the midwife and my nephew went as cup head. I painted his face. I have no idea what cup head is but that’s what he wanted so that’s what he got.

Anyway, please spare a thought for my healing tree and send out some love and light to it and the people on it.

Love and light all.