I’ve been meaning to write something for the past few days. The problem being I haven’t had a clue what to right about. Decisions decisions decisions.

I’ve thought about about writing loads of different things. Everything from healing through change, dealing with change and talking about acceptance. I even started writing something the other day. Got a few paragraphs in then decided it did t feel right so deleted it.

Last week I tweaked a few things on the website. I added a subscription option so you can sign up to get emails when I add something new. I also added something to the reiki page too. So please feel free to have a route round.

From a spiritual point I’ve been doing some work. Not a lot and I know I should do more and I’ll get round to it at some point.

This last week though I feel all I’ve done is sleep. I’ve been sleeping so much it’s almost unbelievable. My body clock has shifted and swapped round. It seems to want me to sleep during the day and be awake at night. I’m going to be having a sleep study soon so fingers crossed that will help.

Breathing has been awkward at times too. Just going up or down the stairs I have to rest and I’ve ended up panting like a bloody dog. I seem to now be even more reliant on my asthma puffers. I even have to use them with something I call my pipe bomb. It’s a plastic tube that the puffer goes in one end and you spray into that and then breath in the inhaler through it. Wheezing is getting annoying as well. I know it’s there most of the time but I notice it more at night when it’s quiet and there isn’t much noise. When that starts time to set up my pipe bomb with my blue puffer. Great fun.

I was at a pain clinic last week too. And they say they going to help me with the pain but haven’t suggested drugs. They have said though that I will have pain most of the time I just need to learn to deal with it in different ways. They also referred me on to a pain specialist physio. I’m not quite sure how that is going to go. I’ll find out eventually when that starts.

Last week I had to have a few early mornings which were really hard and made the sleep thing worse. It will all be sorted soon though. I’m determined.

Anyway that’s enough insane rambling from me. And I will find something better to write about next time. But this is a good way to let people know what’s going on with me.