Category: My weird, wonderful, insane, ranting, raving, articulating claptrap

I’m getting really bored now of seeing so much racist crap on Facebook. I think I’ll have to go on a deleting spree soon. It also says a lot about the people I thought were friends.

What pushed it over the edge today was seeing a meme on Facebook saying a school had been marked down by ofsted because it was too white and too English. It then went on to say share if you’ve had enough of anti English racism.

To me the meme in its self is racist and shows racism from the people that share it. Yes it’s right the school should be marked down as it’s teaching kids from a young age that segregation is all good. The fact I think it’s one of those words on a picture things that must be true cos it’s on Facebook. Its probably all bullshit and shows how narrow minded  and gullible people can be.

Segrigation and narrow mindedness is never a good thing. The only way we can progress as people is by working together. It’s bad enough the country is going through a segrigation process all of its own. By that I’m talking about brexit. Yet another case of people thinking they are better than everyone else.

Admittedly it does seem to be older people. With that whole debate I found it funny that people were saying they have no say in the decisions that were made in Brussels. The funny bit is that the people that were saying it were supposed to be the one we chose as a country to make sure they have the say. If they weren’t being listened to it says they weren’t doing their job properly.

i didn’t want to get into anything political on this blog but I’ve had to. I have had enough of racism, homophobia and anything else that is saying one race or religion is better than another. Everyone is equal. King Arthur had the right idea with the round table thing. Everyone should work together we would get a hell of a lot more done and we would achieve anything and everything we wanted to.

I beg you, I am pleading that you work with other people and show love and respect to anyone you come into contact with.

Its the only way we can progress as a species. And that would benefit everyone. There would be no more war, or the need for weapons of mass destruction. Let’s defeat hate of any kind and give everything else a chance.

It all comes down to love and acceptance. If you accept everyone there would be no issues. Acceptance is a form of love.

I’ll leave you with that thought.

Love and light.

Air conditioning is amazing. Feel like that’s a bit of an understatement but it is. I spent a small fortune the other day and ordered an air conditioning unit. The thought has crossed my mind in the past but I finally took the plunge and got one.

I only started using it today but it’s been a godsend. It will definitely be useful when it gets even warmer than it has been. The heat sets off my symptoms something chronic so staying cool on a hot day is now a must for me. So I got an air conditioner and it’s amazing. That’s about it for that.

other things I’ve been up to is I seem to now be on the committee of the local branch of the ms society. Not quite sure how that happened but I think it’s something to do with my mum saying we would help with things. Anyway it’s something else to spend my time on which is good.

ive still been doing a lot of sleeping but think it may be down to medication, pain and the heat. I had a Skype session with my psychic lady the other day which was really good. I’m learning loads and it’s reinforcing things I already know and do. She is awesome.

Other than that I had my birthday the other day to. There wasn’t really much to report from that. It was a nice quiet day without any drama or anything so it was good. Going out for a meal tomorrow night with the family to celebrate. I’m looking forward to that, it should be fun.

Today I went to the development group. It was as a nice evening with my mum and the group and I got my kebab on the way home. An interesting things happened during the group session though. A mad a prediction about who was interacting with who. Spirit and group member wise. It was pretty accurate so got a bit of a buzz from that. There was a bit of a meditation at the beginning run by Tracey the group leader. During that had an experience I’ve not really had before. I saw everyone’s spirit teams. Their spirit guides. It was slightly weird but another good experience.

During the evening I decided to send out healing to everyone in the group. I was using reiki and love and light. There was a spirit in the room that needed it and I just decided to include the rest of the group as well. There was however one person in the group that was completely closed to the energy. I alway do it with the intention that it doesn’t go to people who don’t want or need it. I just found it strange that the energy just flowed round the person like a rock in a river. The issue being I could see that this person needed the healing but they were just blocking anything and everything.

i had to get my mum to go into the kebab shop for me as it was getting late and I was getting wobbly. Partly from being hungry and needing my medication. Pain started too. So in a bit of pain at the moment and I’m waiting for the drugs to kick in.

Anyway that’s enough rambling from me.

Love and light.

All I’ve done for the past few days is sleep and take painkillers. It hasn’t been a good few days.

The heat has been aweful too. It makes my symptoms worse. I’ve had fans and air coolers working overtime. Surprised they haven’t blown up.

I used to love hot sunny days but I just can’t cope with them anymore. But the heat does explain the pain so hence the pain killers and explains all the sleep my fatigue has been sky high too. I’ve been considering buying an air conditioner.

It doesn’t help that my room is west facing. When the sun comes round in the afternoon my room heats up like a chuffing oven. Having the window open and the door open in an attempt to get some air moving. The air coolers I have in there struggles. It doesn’t do much to cool the air down.

I’ve tired to do a few things in the garden but all I managed to do today was to tie up the plants in the greenhouse. That was hard and it only took 5 minutes.

I’ve been struggling to find something decent to sleep to on Netflix as well. It’s feeling like everything is against me at the moment.

It just feels hard trying to explain how I feel and what’s up with me at the moment. I feel like a kid at times. I just don’t know the words to explain things anymore. It’s hard and gets me down. I should be getting some help soon though I’ve been put back on a waiting list with the local counselling service.

I think I’ve also been inadvertently volunteered to help out with the local ms society group too. Not sure yet what that will involve but have a meeting with them on Wednesday night. Just hope that goes ok.

On a brighter note though it’s my birthday in a few days. Just hope it will be better than last year when I had to have a CT scan. Things can only be better this time.

I’ve had my moan now so I’ll sign off and hope to see you soon.

Love and light.

So emotions have been running high today for a lot of people.

I personally didn’t know any of the 22 who were lost 12 months ago. But it happened in my local city. A sad day but just showed by everyone in it that hate will never win. Love will overcome all.

What is love this not hereafter present mirth hath present laughter what’s to come is still unsure in love there lies no plenty.

Old words from Shakespeare. Still true though. Love has no plenty it never end and never runs out. We must do everything we can to love one another it is the only way we will stamp out hate.

There is too much hate in the world as it is. We must do everything we can to stamp it out. Love is the only way we can beat the hate. It’s finding the light it the darkest of places.

To find the light we must look hard and never stop. The search is never ending. Never give up hope. Spare a thought for the ones who have been lost in that appalling cowardly act 12 months ago. The 22 will never be forgotten.

Also love the ones you may have lost personally . Send out love for everyone and everything. It is the right thing to do. Big love to one and all.

A very short post tonight but remember love love love.

Here is a beacon of light to help all who are lost and for those we have lost.

I’ve had major pain for the last few days. It’s really bad. Agony even. Even tramadol have been struggling to deal with it. The pain has been pretty pants but the drug induced hazes have been pretty fun.

On a different note I feel a bit like a kid at Christmas. I’m excited for tomorrow. I’m getting a new tattoo.

Some sacred geometry. The flower of life. It contains all the Platonic solids and a few other things too. It looks pretty anyway,

For the last few days I’ve cut down on drinking coke as well. That is a massive step for those that know me. I am a massive coke fiend. The drink that is not the illegal substance. All I seem to have done for the last few days is sleep. The fatigue has been sky high. Think its due to lack of caffeine. Suppose it was doing something. Been drinking hell loads of vimto. As if it’s going out of fashion. A couple of litres a day. Better than coke. Less sugar anyway.

Short and sweet post today.

Love and light.

Well today I went for a bath. Not what you’re thinking you dirty person. It was a gong bath.

What is a gong bath? Basically you lie on the floor in a room while someone plays some gongs. Sounds simple and not quite right to some but let me tell you you go deep. It’s like a really really really deep meditation. It unlocks a lot of things and you can use the time to do a lot work spiritually.

I went with my mum, didn’t really know what to expect as I’ve never done anything like it before and neither has my mum. I had a vague experience with gongs a few years ago at an mbs fair but it was nothing like today. Then it was in a room full of people chatting away, psychics plying their trade and healers doing their thing. Let just say you could hardly hear yourself think let alone go anywhere in a meditation. So I discount that time as anything legitimate.

It was at the local spiritual centre/ church today. Like I said earlier I didn’t know what to expect or have any plans for a journey so deep. When we got there we laid out our blankets to lie on and I used the bolster pillow I got at the big MBS fair in Manchester. On a side note it is quite comfortable.

Once we were all set the lady playing the gong gave a little talk. She said the theme of what they were playing was Love and Light. I thought that was really nice. She also said that people have been known to go on a very deep journey during the sessions she’s done in the past. Again I though cool. I’ll let it go and see what comes up.

I forgot to mention that I laid out some of the crystals I had in my bag including my pendulums. I also put out the reiki stone I have. I thought they’d get a good blast from the energy anyway even if I didn’t, I lay back and the playing began.

Before I knew it I was away with the fairies (some would say I’m away there most of the time). I went really really deep. It’s been a while since I’ve done that. I decided to channel reiki throughout the session anyway again to get something out of it. A bit of self healing never goes amiss. I also called in the ascended masters, ascended reiki people, gods and goddesses, angels and archangels and any other beings of light that wanted to come through.

During the session I was having work done everywhere and I mean everywhere. They were working on my head and on my eyes and ears. Working on my legs too. I’m glad about that, it’s where I normally get pain. I had conversations with people about all sorts of things, mainly about improving the spiritual abilities I have. They helped improve things and work on things that needed it.

The journey was cool, I loved it and I want to do it again.

One another note I’ve also be doing a lot of work with reiki recently to. I re built my reiki web of light and have a few things in there that need reiki. I also tied it into the ICRT world piece grids that are doted all over the planet. So that should give it an extra boost when they do a peace grid meditation. It will also help boost the grids around the world. Anyway it’s time to do a bit more reiki work so got to get going and working.

Love and light all.

P.S. If you would like to be added to my reiki grid let me know.

To me the communion of spirit is in part about making contact with the other side. It’s not just people that have crossed over but it’s the people that are here now. Everyone and everything is spirit.

Everyone and everything is connected. I’m not just talking about relations and family connection but friends and even mrs smith down the road. We are all connected through spirit. The connection is stronger with some people and they are normally close friends and relatives. The connection is still there with the average joe you see on the street.

All of these spirits can teach you lessons, help you through tough times or even just be there for company. The best way to enhance the connection with anything is through love. You love your parents and your partners, why not show love to someone else?

Showing love will improve you connection. You get people like me that can connect and talk to people on the other side. That mainly cos we have opened up ourselves to do that. Some people can talk to anyone anywhere. It’s the same with mediums and psychics. It’s just that we talk to people that have crossed over as well as people on this side.

Communion is another way of saying sharing thoughts, feelings, emotions and communicating. Everyone communicates. A lot of people communicate without realising it. This is done mainly through body language. If you’re in pain there may be a grimace on your face. If you’re unhappy you may look sad. These are all methods of communication.

Mediums are here to help people. We pass messages from loved ones on the other side to help, teach or guide people on their own path.

As everyone is spirit and connected I think people should always spare a moment to think of others. Send love and the good old thoughts and prayers. By helping others that are less fortunate than you, you are helping spirit and in turn helping yourself.

I think everyone can make a connection to lost loved ones. Just by having that conversation with them. You may feel silly talking to yourself but trust me. They are there listening. You may not hear the answers they are giving but they are there. They will help where they can and push you in the right direction if it’s needed. I’ve even know spirit to give the occasional kick up the backside to people who need it. That’s just to get them going. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn’t. The same way you can have a conversation with someone they hear you but don’t listen to what you’re actually saying. It can be the same with you and spirit.

Just by talking to spirit, it can make you feel better. Having a session where you put the world to rights works brilliantly with spirit just as it does with friends. If you can’t see, hear or feel them, they might give you the answer through a dream or even just by popping a random thought in your head. They do say spirit works in mysterious ways.

The best way to think of a medium is like a receptionist. We answer the call and pass the message on. Sometimes we have to filter it especially if the language is a little on the colourful side. We send the message on in one way or another. Some people draw pretty pictures, from me though you’d be lucky to get a stick man. Others sing, if I did I’d empty the room. Some mediums can tell you the life story of the person they’re dealing with. As is always true everyone is different but don’t forget we are still all connected through spirit.

Love and light.

Well really good few days. I’ve achieved lots and done a fair few good things. A few other things have happened to.

Let’s start on Friday daytime. Had a very slow day. I slept for most of the morning then got up as had to go out. First trip was to take my nephew to the dentist. His abscess has got worse. The last lot of anti booties didn’t really help. He’s now been given some stronger ones, just hope these one will help him. He was a bit moany for most of the afternoon so I said he could ride with me in my wheel chair. At least that perked him up a bit.

Then my sister and him went home and me and my mum carried on to the doctors. I had an appointment to discuss my medication. We had the discussion with the gp and then went to the chemist to get the prescription sorted.

That evening I went to the development group. There were some new people there. We haven’t had new people in the group for ages. We also had another member rejoin the group. It was great to see her again. The session went well with the group. Had a basic play with energy night. It’s nice to go back to basics and help new people learn things.

One of the last exercises we did was sending energy round the circle and then out into the room to see what we picked up. It was cool. I think all of the new people picked something up and felt the energy moving which is great in its self. During the session I picked up on something not so nice so me and my spirit team shifted it. Other than that it was a really good night.

Today was a day for garden shopping. Well I was going to do some gardening but my mum and I took ages in the garden centre so gave up on the idea of doing anything, just chilled for the evening and then decided to do this.

Love and light.

Well the journey always continues and doesn’t stop it just gets side tracked.

I’ve started doing some work again with a good friend and I’m back on track with my spiritual work again.

Today we discussed a few different things and one of them was about dealing with contradicting information. It was cool and great to find out how to deal with contradictions. Eg when a question has a yes or no answer and there is no definitive answer. It’s about looking at the different possibilities and discussing them in more detail.

This is something I always struggled with. It’s something that has cropped up for me in real life tonight to.

I was looking through Facebook and came across a discussion about freedom of speech. I started writing a reply then thought it would make a great post. I started typing away and then thought I may offend someone with what I was saying and the examples I was using. Or that someone may dislike what I have to say so I decided to change the whole thing. Anyway it was about freedom of speech and freedom of opinion. I was thinking everyone is free to say what they want. And if someone else has a differing opinion they need to discuss it and educate the other person. This then made me think of examples where someone with a negative opinion could sway someone with a positive one. I thought this could lead down a problematic path and things may lead to negative things happening where things that aren’t right happen. It’s happened in the past and caused wars and god knows what.

So I decided that rather than say something negative I wouldn’t say anything at all. I will say though that I think everyone is entitled to an opinion if it’s right or wrong is a different story. I’ll leave it there. Feel free to educate others but try to look at what is right. Do not promote hate, promote love. Do not promote difference promote equality. Find the light in a situation and it can be resolved peacefully and darkness can be removed. Do not try to force your opinion down anyone’s throat. Listen to what they have to say and be nice about it.

At pride last year I decided to go to the vigil on the Monday night. It was emotional but made a very good point about education being the right way to go. If it is done from a place of love and light it can’t be wrong. Teaching people about others differences and helping them to accept them I feel is a good way to go.

I feel it’s great being back on the spiritual path. I will develop, nothing will stop me. I will practice more and work more closely with my spirit team. They can teach me everything I need to know. Again this goes back to the point of education. I feel if people learn more about others or can only lead to acceptance and goodness.

I still have a ways to go and the journey is never over but it will lead to good things. The journey is often better than the destination. Life is a journey at the end of the day. I’m sure there is a song there but for the life of me I can’t think what it is.

Yes this post has been a bit of a rambling effort going here there and everywhere but hey, that’s life.

Anyway as always love and light.

Well it’s been a few days since my last post. I’ve had a hard weekend and other days too for that matter. I’ve dealt with things from baking cinnamon rolls, drinking vodka and jet washing the garden.

Since my last update I’ve had to deal with my nephew and his moaning and whinging and not wanting to do his spellings. Also about treating him with antibiotics because of an abscess. I understand why he didn’t want the antibiotics though. As he’s only young he gets the liquid version. I know from experience that the pills taste nasty so the liquid it’s self must be even worse. So fair do’s to him. It’s gonna be nasty.

Spelling wise he did really well considering he didn’t want to practice them. He got 7 out of 8. Bravo little dude. There were times though that I had to retreat to my little man cave of a greenhouse. I struggled to deal with his moods and arguments. Part of his homework though is that he has to grow something from a seed or bulb. Had the bright idea that he should plant some lettuce.

I wouldn’t mind but his seem to be growing better than mine. They are coming through and doing quite well at the moment. Only issues is he has to take care of them. That wouldn’t be a problem if he didn’t like watering the whole greenhouse. Including the beds with nothing in them other than weeds. He like to almost drown everything else in there too. It’s quite funny though but it saves me a job.

I have had to do other things in the greenhouse like put plastic bottles over some of the plants to help them thrive a bit. Even with a heater on it isn’t quite warm enough yet for things to thrive. I’m looking at other things to help warm it up a bit too. Considering things like candle and flower pot heaters and stuff like that. Just need to try different things I suppose.

I have been asked through my mum by other mums from the school if I would help them with the garden they are doing. I said I would but need to find out what they actually want me to do. I’ll find out and suppose it gets me out of the house for a bit.

Yesterday I decided to make some cinnamon rolls. Oh my god they looked good and tasted even better. I took them to a family gathering in the afternoon. I wasn’t looking forward to it as I was expecting to get, how you coping? I knew someone that had that and they’re fine and running marathons and stuff. Luckily I didn’t. I got to see people I haven’t seen for a long time. I also got to know people I didn’t before. Well I did know them but not if that makes sense. Let’s just say at the party I got a little squiffy. 3/4 of a bottle of vodka. Not sure if it was a good move or not. Probably not.

I did wake up this morning though feeling fine and without a hangover. So that’s good I guess.

Oh Friday was a busy day for me. I went to the local ms support group. That was cool. Did some physio stuff and some exercises. Also when to the pool with my sister and nephew. I had the bright idea I may even try swimming. A bit of exercise does you good or so they say. As I’m typing this I obviously didn’t drown. It was bloody hard work. Managed a length or two and it nearly killed me. I was shattered. Doesn’t sound like I did much but everything that day nearly wiped me out completely. I know I need to budget energy more effectively. I may have energy right now but need to think about what else I have to do either later that day or for the next few days. My energy now is in a finite supply so have to take care of it. I learned that the hard way.

Today was another stupid thing. I decided when I woke up I was gonna have a lazy day. That lasted until about lunchtime. Then I decided that I would do some bits in the garden. Out came the jetwash and thought I’d do a bit then rest the. Maybe do a bit more or stop. The issue is I get fixated on things and have to finish something if I start it. So I jetwashed the whole yard. It’s not easy hobbling round with a walking stick and jet wash. I did the whole thing. Again it nearly killed me. Literally this time. I was so cold and wiped out afterwards I couldn’t open my hands and they were stuck round my walking stick. I was sent to have a shower by my mum and dad. Mainly to clean up and warm up. I spent nearly an hour in the shower. Having to use a plastic footstool step thing to sit on as I couldn’t really stand anymore.

Now I feel like I’ve been drinking all day. I haven’t touched a drop. Head is spinning body feels broken and heavy. I’m all achey and considering some strong painkillers as the pain is building. My body is tired and wants sleep but I don’t feel tired. It’s weird.

Anyway, that’s enough from me. Love and light.