It feels like it’s been forever since I posted anything. That’s because I couldn’t decide on anything to write about.
I’m still doing my knitting. I finished the neck tube, scarf, snood thing for my nephew. He likes it and seems to be wearing it a lot. That’s good. I started working on a beanie for my self at weekend. First time using circular needles. It was a bit complicated but got there and I’m just knitting along with that. I’ve also made loads of baby hats and cord ties. Have to do the bobbles for the hats which won’t take long.
Thieves. These are awful creatures. An old Instagram account I had seems to have been taken over by someone else. No idea how. Instagram has been crap helping as well. Messaged them through Facebook had no reply, messages them through Instagram and had no reply. I’ve reported the old account about 5 times and nothing has been done. Now I keep getting emails from Instagram about verifying an account, because I can’t get into it I can’t do it. These emails also now seem to be coming through in various languages. So I have no idea what to do about it. It was stressing me out and annoying me.
When it comes to crystals I’ve been getting giddy again with them. This time it’s been Luna Quartz, Luna rose and selenite. I nearly now have enough selenite to build a house. That wouldn’t work though it dissolves in water. I’ve decided though that I’m going to grid my room and maybe go as far as putting some over some of the doors in the house. I haven’t decided yet though. I know I need to do some more work with my crystals and some more psychic work too. It feels like forever since I’ve done that.
Here are some pictures of my knitting and crystals:
There is an advert on TV at the moment and it really annoys me.
“My mums not so mobile anymore so I told her to stop collecting her repeat prescription”.
Don’t know if you’ve seen the advert or not but every time I see it, it winds me up.
If it’s a repeat prescription it’s more than likely something that the person that has been prescribed the medication needs, maybe even to live. I realise that it’s only being said to advertise the service on offer, but there really has to be a better way to do it. I just hope that people don’t look at is as an excuse to stop getting prescriptions for others or even themselves.
Sadly in this day and age there are too many stupid people out there that would just stop. I was having a conversation the other day with my mum and dad saying it’s getting to the point that everything dangerous will have to be fenced off soon. Like the edges of cliffs or deep water or something. It’s because some people are that stupid that they need safety things like that to stop them walking off cliffs because there isn’t a fence.
I don’t know why people have lost all ability to see danger and not get to close. It’s common sense for god sake. Everyone has it, it’s just some refuse to use it.
Anyway, enough ranting. I’ve spent the last few days knitting. I made a tiny hat. But think it’s a bit too small for what I need them for so I’m in the process of making another one.
I joined a local knitting group and there are a lot of really nice people in there. All willing to help and point you in the right direction if needed. I was a bit nervous at first but I got through it.
I’m not sure if it’s that or something else but my anxiety is starting up again at the moment. But, I haven’t had a breakdown yet which is awesome. I’ve managed to calm myself down with a little help from reiki, Karuna, and spirit.
The past 24 hours I’ve been flying. I’ve done loads of work for the local branch of the MS society. All pretty simple stuff but I’ve done it.
I haven’t really done much else recently other than knit. There’s nothing wrong with that though it keeps be busy and out of mischief.
So been an interesting week. I’ve been learning to knit, I finished my blanket and a few other things.
Today is 12 months to the day I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. It’s been an interesting year. There have been ups and down as you’d expected. Yeah be lost the ability to walk properly without a stick. If I have to go any distance I have to use a wheel chair. I’ve had well have issues with emotions. I get sensory overload at times and lots of confusion. Anxiety is in there too. Oh, and I forgot to mention the pain.
I’ve lost touch with some people and had to cut others out. Some people just don’t understand me or what’s going on. One day I can be fine(ish) and others and don’t want to get out of bed. There have been plenty of lessons I’ve had to learn, some have had to be battered in with a sledgehammer. I’ve learn a lot about myself and had to listen to my body and what it wants.
Anyway, don’t want to dwell on the crap and the past. I’ve learnt new things and met some new amazing people. I’m helping the local branch of the MS Society with some technical stuff and that’s been fun. I’ve done a lot of work with my spiritual side, been doing lots of readings and helping lots of people with that. I like helping people. I’ve also made lots of new friends on Facebook. People I’ve never met face to face but they’ve been great. I’ve also started working with crystals again, so my collection has come out of hiding and is being added to.
Recently I’ve been having issues with anxiety again. Problem here is I don’t know what’s been setting it off. So it’s been hard to fix the problem that’s been causing it. I’ve just had to calm down.
The pain is utter pants. And it’s no longer just in my legs. It comes and goes what it wants and can be anywhere. Yes I’m on a silly amount of pills and I Fred to think what things would be like with out them. It’s not very fun having a messed up brain.
Back to this week.
I haven’t really done much. I finished the blanket I was making. I decided it was big enough and didn’t want to do anything else to it. I’ve also spent my time learning how to knit. Only been doing small things so far like little strips. That’s just to practice. I’m thinking I may practice some more and make a scarf. They look pretty simple to do. It’s just one stitch again and again and again so not much work but at least it’s practice. My sister has said she wants lots of baby hats making with different coloured bobbles. That so they can see which baby needs the most help. As it’s for a good cause I said I’d give it a go. So one Sunday coming up I’m going to go to a local knitting group to figure out how to do it and what I need to do. I’m a bit nervous about that, the usual things, will they like me? Will they tell me to go away? Will they not help? Will they tell me to stop and not do anymore? So yeah the usual things really. Well they are for someone with anxiety anyway.
Today I watched the hitchhikers guid to the galaxy. That’s where the so long and thanks for all the fish comes from. That song from the film just makes me chuckle. I think it’s a good way to look at things too. For those that don’t know I hate fish so I look at the song as good bye to all the rubbish and crap that happens and thanks for the lessons it’s taught me. So great way to look at things.
I’ll get back to knitting my scarf now and hope that works. Anyway if you need anything or want to chat or what ever just give me a shout. I do most of my communication by message now as I have issues talking at times (some may think it’s a good thing as I might have talked too much in the past).
Well not sure if you have or haven’t seen what I’ve been up to recently on Facebook, I’ve been learning new things this week. I’ve learnt how to finger knit. I made a scarf for my mum. She liked it.
The latest thing is crochet. I’ve learned how to do. All from the powers of you tube. I’ve made 2 granny squares and my mum has challenged me to make a blanket. So I’m making another granny square but it’s going to be massive.
That’s the first one I made and I’m really proud of myself for doing it.
The whole thing started from a video I saw on Facebook last week. It showed lots of different knitting type things. It had making friendship bracelets, Pom Pom rugs, finger knitting and stuff like that. So got a couple of balls of wool and took it from there.
Sunday I decided to try crochet. I got my mum to take me to a craft shop to buy some hooks. Got a couple more balls of wool some plastic needles and of course the crochet hooks. They came in a set and were all brightly coloured which is always fun.
I decided I needed something to do, something that would fill up time. Most of my down time I’m sat working on my blanket. I have no idea how big it’s going to be or how long it’s going to take but I’m doing it still the same.
Learning new things is important. Not just to me but should be important to everyone. If we didn’t learn anything new we’d all still be living in caves and grunting at each other.
The journey we call life is full of lessons. We have to learn them and accept them before we can move forward. Try learning a new skill or ability. There are so many different ways to do this. Talk to friends or family, go to a group, talk to strangers. There are so many people out there who are willing to give up some time to teach. You can even use YouTube. Again there’s a hell of a lot on there on millions of different subjects. I’m not just talking about academics here. There are things like making sugar flowers, crochet and how to set up a spreadsheet. There will even be things on there about spiritual things.
Just learn new things, it can be fun and help with different parts of your life.
If you want to learn to crochet a granny square here is the video I used:
I know it’s been like forever since I last posted but quite a bit has been going on. I’ve had a holiday. First time in a long time I’ve been away from home for something that isn’t dance related.
Yes I know I can’t dance anymore and haven’t now for well over 12 months. But I do like to see the friends I made while I did dance.
Anyway, Holiday. So I spent the week on a boat. Something I haven’t done for an absolute age. I grew up around boats, my dad used to sail dinghies and at one point used to make sails. My parents part own a catamaran with some of their friends. We used to have a family holiday on it every year.
There is a picture of the boat. It’s called
There are so many good memories of times spent onboard. I’ve done so many things over the years, everything from swimming with Basking Sharks, having dolphins swimming alongside to travelling to different places.
This time though we didn’t really do much sailing because we had no idea how I was going to be with all my health issues and the fact it’s been about 13 years since I’d been onboard. So we only had a trip round Plymouth sound and up the Yealm river. It was great though just to be away from home and being somewhere different.
I did get some nice pictures though:
I thought they were pretty good even if you don’t.
During the time away I still had the usual pain and dizziness but there isn’t much I can do about it so just have to put up with it.
I also did some psychic work while I was there for the keystone crystals Facebook group. That was fun.
A couple more pictures from my time away
I thought the picture of the archway May appeal to some of my American friends and it’s the steps where the Mayflower left England for the new world.
I got to see some friends while we were away to. They used to live round the corner from me but moved to Plymouth years ago. I haven’t seen them for years. But I got to meet up with Matthew and we had a good chat.
That’s about it really, there is probably loads of other things too but can’t think of them at the moment. That’s the other thing, confusion and brain fog. They’ve been an absolute bar steward over the past few weeks as well.
Lots of pain and a general feeling of uncomfortableness. So Saturday my mum and dad came home. It was great to have them back. More people in the house to talk to.
Saturday night watched a live Crystal feed from Keystone crystals. That’s always fun for some laughs, it’s just a great time to get some new crystals and chat with some other crazy people like me. The other people who watch the lives are so funny and friendly.
Sunday, mainly a lazy day with nothing really to report.
Monday, dragged my lazy ass out of bed to get up washed and dressed to go for an appointment in town. When I was ready I sat down in the living room and then the phone rang. The guy I was having the appointment with called to say he was double booked and needed to change my appointment. So I was a little miffed with that, I could have had another lazy day but hey ho.
Tuesday, went to see the new Mama Mia film with my mum and sister. I decided to walk into the cinema as the disabled seats are crap and on the front row. It was the furthest I’ve walked in quite a while. I won’t be doing that again. It hurt like hell. So lots of pain because of the walking and the stairs. The anxiety wasn’t great either because of lots of people. I got through it though. The film wasn’t bad though. I think everyone enjoyed it. At the end my sister started talking to one of her friends that works at the cinema. I was struggling at this point. I found it difficult to stand up while they were chatting so went to sit down. They seemed to be taking forever so then said I was going outside for a smoke. The pain was building too. So I was sat on a wall outside having a smoke. I felt like a bit like a teenager again. Sat down the pain was building and so was the anxiety, sitting outside on a wall late at night can do that. After what felt like a week my mum and sister finally came out. I then realised I hadn’t had my nighttime pills. Only 2 hours late so no major issue. As I didn’t have a drink to take them with my sister went back in to get a bottle of water. Had my pills and Dad arrived to take us home.
Wednesday.
Had to get up early to go for the appointment that was moved from Monday. Had that then went home. Decided I was gonna do a random card for the KeyStone group and the same card came out as one I’ve done earlier. Yes the meaning may change for each reading but I was feeling the same info coming through so thought no point in posting about it. Wednesday evening. Time for another Facebook live from Keystone. Again great laugh with everyone.
Thursday. Yet another early morning but this time was for a hospital trip. Another one of my monthly blood tests. Had to wait around for a bit for a really quick chat with the ms nurse. My mum wanted to do it I just wanted to go home. Got home had some breakfast watched tv for a bit and then went for an afternoon nap. Woke up watched more tv. Did a little bit of reading about mindfulness. It’s something my counsellor is doing with me. And then I decided to do this post.
There have been other things I’ve been doing this week like crystal write ups, taking pictures of crystals and using that hair wax stuff that changed the colour of your hair. I got the green, blue and silver. Silver looks ok and so does the blue but the green just made my scalp look mouldy. Oh and just remembered that me and my mum cleaned my room too and started moving my crystals back upstairs.
That’s about it. Nothing exciting really happened this week.
Well what an awesome weekend and I haven’t left the house for most of it.
Let’s start on Friday. Had a quick trip into bury with my sister and nephew. Something I bought on Thursday broke so I had to change it. No major issues. The people in the shop are great and sorted it with no problems.
After that time was getting a little tight for my sister and nephew to get to what they were going to do. So I said just take me and my car then you don’t have to worry about getting me home until later. So off we went. They were going to something in Trafford park called inflation nation. Basically it’s a massive warehouse filled with bouncy castle type things. It like one giant bouncy castle that has slide in it and everything. Even adults are allowed to go on it. So my sister and nephew had an hour of mental activity there. I just sat in my wheel chair rolling in and out of the building to go for a smoke. I know my nephew really enjoyed himself. I think my sister did too. I also had fun because I got to have a blue shlushie. Fronzen sugar, E numbers, how could you go wrong.
I said earlier that I know my nephew enjoyed it as he spent the rest of the trip back moaning that he couldn’t go in again after his hour was up. It took nearly an hour to get back as the traffic was starting to build for rush hour. We just had music blaring so a good time was had by all in the car.
When I got home had some time to chill and relax and have some tea. I decided during this time that I was going to do something a little crazy for me. Something I have never done before and something I’ve never heard any one else do. I decide later on in the evening I was going to open the door and see who wanted to chat from a spirit point of view. I would then post the messages on to Facebook. I decided I was going to do this on a Facebook group I’ve been a member of for a couple of weeks.
I asked permission first before doing anything to make sure they didn’t mind. I was being a good boy. so it was going to be a bit of a mediumship demonstration but by Facebook posts rather than face to face. I told people they don’t have to beg for a message be sending me their name or anything. I said it was up to the spirit work and who came through. I wasn’t going to pick anyone from this side, it was all up to spirit. This seemed to get quite a lot of interest from different members of the group. I should say that it’s a crystal group on Facebook so most people in it are open to spiritual things.
The group is called KeyStone Crystals. It’s run by two really nice people Hannah and Carl. And there are so many nice people that are members. So during the night/session it lasted about 2 hours. I managed to give about 8 messages. All were accepted by different people. That in its self was a massive confidence boost. I also told everyone that was following the feed that if I have named someone but the description and info ticks the boxes for you that they could take the message to. Spirit work in mysterious ways and will send a couple of messages at the same time if they can.
After that session I was contacted by Hannah to ask how it went. I said it went amazingly well with a really good reception from everyone. She then said I can do anything like that, or card reading or Crystal picks (suggesting a crystal people need to work with) for people when ever I want. So another great feeling. So I spent the rest of Friday night absolutely buzzing. I feel in a way I have become the resident psychic for the group. So I decided Friday was freaky Friday, because of the psychic stuff (not body swapping like the film) so it may well become a regular thing.
The rest of the weekend I haven’t left the house, I’ve just been buzzing and slobing about. Another good thing is that my mum and dad came home on Saturday. They’ve been away for the week. So now I can go back to relying on them for things and not other people.
So recently I’ve been seeing who my friends really are. I’ve been making new ones and finally seeing things clearly.
So the day I was visited by three people. Well two and a dog. I got a visit from Carol, Lynn and Max. It was great to see them. We spent the afternoon sat in the garden chatting and playing with Max the dog. It was a great afternoon. It had been talked about for ages but today it finally happened.
We talked about this that and everything else. We also talked about seeing people for who they truly are. Some nice some not so nice. A bit like Santa’s list.
Also had a trip to the MS drop in. My sister took me down. It’s just an evening of chatting to other people affected by this bastard of a disease. It’s great to help new people understand what’s going on.
I’ve also been doing a lot of work with crystals and my psychic side too. I’m a member of a couple of crystal Facebook groups and been helping people on there. I’ve been doing write ups about different crystals and saying they help with this and are good for that. That’s fun.
I’ve also been doing a few readings on one of the groups too. The thread was set up so people posted a photo of them and if you’re drawn to them you give them a reading or what ever you picked up. Me being me and having to be different I posted on the thread saying I work the other way round. So I said I’ll do a reading if you’re drawn to me. So on that I’ve had a few people say they would like a reading. So I’ve done one. I’ve also done a reading for a friend. They were saying they’d like to know who was around them. So I told them.
I’ve also been looked after by my sister for the last few days. She’s taken me out and had me round for tea. It’s been nice.
So yes I’ve been in a fair bit of pain for the last few days but I feel good. Things seem to be going well for me. (My mum has injured herself though). My mum and dad have gone away for the week. So I’ve been left on my own. I wanted to see if I could cope and manage mentally. It’s only a couple of days in but I’m feeling pretty confident I can do it.
I did have a stress before they went though. I was worried I didn’t have enough medication set out for the time they were away. And stressing pretty much about everything.
I feel a bit sad at the moment and it seems stupid to say why.
I’ve been doing my pills with my mum today and putting them in boxes and stuff (organising them into pill boxes) so I don’t have to go rooting round for them. Not really we fill up two weeks worth of boxes. We managed one week but we didn’t have enough to do the second week.
As I said stupid, but it feels like I failed. Not being able to fill two weeks worth of pill boxes. Stupid but these things get into my head and there isn’t much I can do about it.
On another note in the last few week I found a Facebook group about crystals. It was completely by chance. But they do weekly selling videos on Facebook. All you need to do is say sold and what ever it is. They normally have a huge range of crystals so I’ve been able to increase my already large collection. In a way that’s medicine to. It’s just energy medicine. So I’ve been playing with crystals a lot again.
I received my latest order this morning and that has some lovely things in it. Here a picture of the new toys I got today:
As I said my collection is rather large already so I may as well show you that to:
So yeah pretty large collection. It’s all good though.
I’ve also been playing with my cards again recently. Started off doing card readings for different Facebook groups I’m in. That was fun. And my last post was a reading without cards. I knew I could do it. I can do readings for people without them but never tried to do a general reading for a group if that makes sense. I just needed to have a bit more faith and trust. So I built up the trust and took the leap of faith and did it. Not had anyone say it was right or wrong though but I know the reading I’ve done in the past for people have been accurate.
Anyway I’m off to have a play with my crystals. See you all soon.
So I feel like trying something I haven’t done before. I’m going to attempt to do a group reading/message without using cards. Have a read and let me know if it works for you.
If you’ve seen my recent message on Facebook you’ll have seen that I’ve been playing with my cards recently. So let’s go one step further and do it without cards. I’ve been told I can do it by people on both sides so I just need to trust myself…………..
So I’ve turned the telly off (well paused it) and dimmed the lights. If you’re sitting comfortably, we’ll begin.
At the moment there is lots of chatter about this and that. Everyone seems to be being pulled in different directions. Everyone seems to think their direction is the best but they fail to realise that there is more than one way to go. Like the old saying “there is more than one way to skin a cat”. You need to make up your own mind about the path that’s right for you. Just remember not all paths are smooth.
There are lessons you need to learn. And barriers that you need to overcome. You can do it, you have the strength inside. You just need to tap into it and the journey will be plain sailing.
Each step along the path contains a lesson you need to learn. Just remember you need to accept something before you can move on and take the next step. If you don’t accept it you’ll end up stuck in the mud and really struggle to get going again.
There are lots of help along the way. This will come from other people and spirit. They’re there even if you don’t believe. Sometime sending love and sometimes giving you the kick up the arse that’s needed to get moving.
Just remember there are always people and spirits ready and willing to help. All you need to do is ask. They’ll help, teach and guide if you can hear them or not.
The best tool to help on the path is love. If you do everything from a place of love and light you’ll be able to fly.
If you need to you can always take a step back to see the bigger picture. Sometimes the challenges that life throws at you can feel and seem insurmountable, if you take the step back you can see them for what they truly are. Don’t make mountains out of mole hills. Things are never as bad as they seem. Just think one day you’ll be able to look back on them and laugh. And when you’ve got through them it will make you a better and stronger person. Just ask for help if you need it. Help is always there.
It’s time to start organising things, putting them in order and for a clear out. I know it’s a bit late for a spring clean but that’s the sort of thing you need to do. Start getting rid of people and things that don’t serve you on your journey. By serve you I don’t mean bring you drinks. I mean the people and things that hold you back and clip your wings. Sometimes though it can feel hard to do. I understand that, I’ve been through it it isn’t easy but it’s one of the best things you can do. Just remember that once these things are removed it will set you free.
Be free, spread your wings. Live life with love and with light. If someone has a problem with you. It’s their problem not your. Don’t worry about it. There is a great song by Ru Paul called sissy that walk. It’s one of those songs that has powerful lyrics. The line I feel that fits here is “unless they paying your bills, pay them bitches no mind”.
If I fly or if I fall least I can say I gave it all. That’s another line from the song. Again do every thing you do to the best of your ability. If it’s cooking, gardening, cleaning or working in an office, just do your best and do it with love. It will make you shine.
