So been an interesting week. I’ve been learning to knit, I finished my blanket and a few other things.
Today is 12 months to the day I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. It’s been an interesting year. There have been ups and down as you’d expected. Yeah be lost the ability to walk properly without a stick. If I have to go any distance I have to use a wheel chair. I’ve had well have issues with emotions. I get sensory overload at times and lots of confusion. Anxiety is in there too. Oh, and I forgot to mention the pain.
I’ve lost touch with some people and had to cut others out. Some people just don’t understand me or what’s going on. One day I can be fine(ish) and others and don’t want to get out of bed. There have been plenty of lessons I’ve had to learn, some have had to be battered in with a sledgehammer. I’ve learn a lot about myself and had to listen to my body and what it wants.
Anyway, don’t want to dwell on the crap and the past. I’ve learnt new things and met some new amazing people. I’m helping the local branch of the MS Society with some technical stuff and that’s been fun. I’ve done a lot of work with my spiritual side, been doing lots of readings and helping lots of people with that. I like helping people. I’ve also made lots of new friends on Facebook. People I’ve never met face to face but they’ve been great. I’ve also started working with crystals again, so my collection has come out of hiding and is being added to.
Recently I’ve been having issues with anxiety again. Problem here is I don’t know what’s been setting it off. So it’s been hard to fix the problem that’s been causing it. I’ve just had to calm down.
The pain is utter pants. And it’s no longer just in my legs. It comes and goes what it wants and can be anywhere. Yes I’m on a silly amount of pills and I Fred to think what things would be like with out them. It’s not very fun having a messed up brain.
Back to this week.
I haven’t really done much. I finished the blanket I was making. I decided it was big enough and didn’t want to do anything else to it. I’ve also spent my time learning how to knit. Only been doing small things so far like little strips. That’s just to practice. I’m thinking I may practice some more and make a scarf. They look pretty simple to do. It’s just one stitch again and again and again so not much work but at least it’s practice. My sister has said she wants lots of baby hats making with different coloured bobbles. That so they can see which baby needs the most help. As it’s for a good cause I said I’d give it a go. So one Sunday coming up I’m going to go to a local knitting group to figure out how to do it and what I need to do. I’m a bit nervous about that, the usual things, will they like me? Will they tell me to go away? Will they not help? Will they tell me to stop and not do anymore? So yeah the usual things really. Well they are for someone with anxiety anyway.
Today I watched the hitchhikers guid to the galaxy. That’s where the so long and thanks for all the fish comes from. That song from the film just makes me chuckle. I think it’s a good way to look at things too. For those that don’t know I hate fish so I look at the song as good bye to all the rubbish and crap that happens and thanks for the lessons it’s taught me. So great way to look at things.
I’ll get back to knitting my scarf now and hope that works. Anyway if you need anything or want to chat or what ever just give me a shout. I do most of my communication by message now as I have issues talking at times (some may think it’s a good thing as I might have talked too much in the past).
Have fun doing what ever you’re doing.
Love and light.
Here’s my blanket of you haven’t seen it:
