Author: Humbug

Aren’t they fucking annoying. As I’m all for sharing I think I’ll attempt to infect you.

So for most of the last week I have had that song in my head. It came after reading a thread on Quora about why some English people say me instead of my. It went on a bit about how some people use it in court when addressing the judge and stuff like that. But one lines in the song is me loominthrumbs. So a video of the song was put at the end.

So after listening to it, it started to get in my head. And the way these things go I then had to find it on YouTube. So yeah it’s partly my own fault but without watching the video or listening to the song it spent 48 hours going round and round and round.

So what else has been going on? Tangling, card making, knitting, colouring and probably a few other things.

So I made this card a few weeks ago but as the birthday hadn’t happened yet I didn’t want to share it because I thought that if it’s seen here first that wouldn’t be fair. So here is the card o made:

I made another for a friend of the family that fixed mums Paddington Bear after Zoe decided to trash him. So after a really good repair job we wanted to say thank you so we did it with this card:

I’ve made another card this week for Harvey but I don’t want to share the picture yet as his birthday isn’t for another few weeks.

On to tangling now I’m back on the tangle train and I’ve been following along with Sandra’s videos on Facebook. Here are some of the tangles I’ve done:

So knitting, I said last time that I was going to knit a baby hat. Well I did and it went to a friend’s new granddaughter. The hat is pretty cute though. It wasn’t planned that way it was just something I was working on to use up wool then a friend said that she’d just become a new grandma of a little girl. So I said I’m knitting a pink hat would you like it?

The hat went to the new grandmother and she said that the mother love it. I’m not one of those stalker type people that want a picture of someone else’s kids wearing the hat. It’s enough just to be told that it’s liked is more than enough.

I’ve also done some knitting for Christmas. 1 gift down one more to go. Again not sharing photos as I don’t want to spoil the surprise.

I was going to knit a deathly hallows shawl for mum from the Harry Potter knitting book. But it’s a complicated pattern with beads and it’s something that takes a lot of concentration to make sure I don’t mess it up. As it’s got lots of lace work and holes in it that if you drop a stitch or mess up you’re pretty much screwed. So I didn’t really want to pressure myself and half kill myself trying to get it done so I decided that I’ll leave the shawl for a bit and do something else instead.

Something I have found out recently though is about wrapping paper at Christmas. I didn’t know but a lot of Christmas wrapping paper isn’t recyclable. So when you’re giving a gift at Christmas just remember that. Either go plain boring paper with a fancy tag, find stuff that can be recycled or stuff that can be used a few times like a gift bag.

I sorted out another online reiki share last week. They’re always fun. Everyone involved enjoyed it and got something from it so that’s great.

So that’s enough from me for now.

Oh yeah, just to make sure that song gets in your head, here are the lyrics:

I’ll sing you one oh,
Green grow my nadgers oh!
Audience: What is your one oh?
One’s the grunge upon my splod, masking my cordwangle.

I’ll sing you two oh,
Green grow my nadgers oh!
Audience: What is your two oh?
Two are me loominthrumbs, see how they jangle,
One’s the grunge upon my splod, masking my cordwangle.

I’ll sing you three oh,
Green grow my nadgers oh!
Audience: What is your three oh?
Three are the times I’ve lunged my groats,
Two are me loominthrumbs, see how they jangle,
One’s the grunge upon my splod, masking my cordwangle.

I’ll sing you four oh,
Green grow my nadgers oh!
Audience: What is your four oh?
Four’s my wurdler’s bent oh,
Three are the times I’ve lunged my groats,
Two are me loominthrumbs, see how they jangle,
One’s the grunge upon my splod, masking my cordwangle.

I’ll sing you five oh,
Green grow my nadgers oh!
Audience: What is your five oh?
Five are the woglers up my spong,
Four for my wurdler’s bent oh,
Three are the times I’ve lunged my groats,
Two are me loominthrumbs, see how they jangle,
Syd Rumpo: One’s the grunge upon my splod, it’s ruined
My cordwangle:
Wa-a-angle

And so you can sing along here is the track again:

Love and light.

Sunday night is here again. There have been some good things happening and some not so good.

To start off with a congratulations to Joe Biden for winning the American election. It’s about time that the USA realised just how evil the orange blob man is. The rest of the work knew this it just took 4 years for them to catch up.

I said on Facebook the other day that trump is another name for a fart and that’s what we can class the last 4 years of America’s history as. It was just a bout of wind with uncontrollable farting.

I do find it interesting how much interest there was here in the US election. Lots of people here saw the orange one for what he is pretty quickly. I just find it shocking that there are so many people who hang on his every word and believe all of the lies, hate and bullshit he spews. He thinks he is the best person on the planet and as expected he called foul when someone else beat him and actually showed the country what a leader should do and be. He’s spread fear and lies for a long time now and most people have had enough.

He’s claiming that the election was fraudulent and he won. Nearly everyone can sea he’s a sore loser and that he would have claimed fraudulent activity if he won and there was only one vote for the other person.

It feels strange to say I felt extremely relieved when Biden was announced as the winner and the next president of the USA, I actually felt happy and now feel the world is a better place and can move forward and not backwards or the way he was taking it.

So to President-elect Binden work some wonders and try hard to undo the issues that have been caused and being your country back together.

That’s enough for another country’s politics. I just wanted to say how happy I was that the best person won and the right thing is being done.

So on to other good things that have happened this week. I finally finished something that I’ve been working on for a while. If you hadn’t guessed I finished sock number 2:

Wooooooooooooo it’s finished. Yesterday and today something just came over me and I blasted through it and got it done. Hand washed and on some sock blockers and when they’re dry I can give them to mum. It’s only taken a good few months but that’s finished and I’m now on to working on stash busters to get my woollen empire under control.

Right now I’m doing a pink baby hat. It’s going to be one with a knot in the top. I’m only 3 rows in so I won’t bore you with pictures of that but I will show you the picture on the pattern.

Should be relatively quick and painless and it eats into another ball of wool.

Wool wise I should tell you what I spent the other night doing. I spent the evening darning socks. Socks that I made for mum last Christmas that Zoe decide to put a hole in. To say I wasn’t best pleased is a bit of an understatement. She’s got into the habit of eating holes in socks and munching on soft toys and stuff like that. I think it’s because she’s bored.

The good thing is that we can go out of the house with her without her being on the lead. She’s started coming back and we don’t have to spend the best part of an hour looking for herald chasing her round. If there is another dog around though we have no hope at all. All she wants to do is play with anyone and everything so she’s off trying to do that.

Zoe has had a bit of a rough week though with all the fireworks that have been going off. When it’s been happening she’s been scared beyond belief. Hiding and shaking. I don’t like fireworks anyway and think they should be banned. They set of my anxiety so I just spent t some time hugging Zoe tight. I read somewhere once that hugging a dog tightly makes them feel comfortable and it relaxes them.

I did do some tangling this weeks but I’ve no pictures to share. I used pastels on it but I can’t find the hair spray to fix it so the tiles is just sat on the side waiting to be finished off and sealed,

Other crafts this week. I’ve made 6 cards. Most of them I can’t show you because they haven’t been given out yet so it might spoil the surprise for the people receiving them. I’ve made loads of flowers using the flower forming foam again no picture because I keep giving them to people like mum and my big sister.

Last week I said something about a sharp solid point in my mouth near the new holes. It started hurting again so another trip to one of my favourite local hang out. Yes I went back to the dentist.

I’m going to make it sound all dramatic and serious now but he had to break my jaw to file down and remove the sharp point.

He actually said that it was part of my jaw bone and it was just the way it decided to heal. So he numbed it up and used some kind of instrument to file it down and break it off. That’s were the he broke my jaw thing comes from. Because by removing the sharp point that was part of my jaw it wasn’t the way it was when I went in so it was broken.

Yeah, not really that dramatic but it can be fun to add drama every now and then. Lol. But yet again the dentist was amazing, really nice and clearly explained things for me. One of the cards I’ve made is for him so it’s a nice simple little thank you card. I used craft card, black card, an embossing folder, some gold finger wax and a die cut of the word thank you. It’s very simple but looks good so I’m happy with it.

The only other thing that’s been churning about ins my noggin is why is sex a taboo subject but when someone says they’re pregnant everyone is all happy and talking about it. In most cases to get pregnant the taboo act of sex has to take place. I just find it strange that people talk about pregnancy knowing what has happened beforehand as if the sex bit (taboo subject) hasn’t happened.

So I’m now going back to my cheesy old Disney films and will talk again soon.

Love and light.

The hugs we share in love and light

They go out with all our might

No longer in person but our hearts shine bright.

It won’t be long until midnight when this thing ends our arms will bend

Together at last our hearts will blend

Until that time our hearts sing out, the songs of love that will not end. The connection’s there for each to send.

Just hold out your hand and hugs will come in from across the land.

The hug holds true for one and all and when we can we’ll have a ball.

Send out hugs

Amen

I came up with that the other day. This not hugging people is hard. I hope you like the little prayer. Everyone that I’ve shared it with have said they liked it and I’m happy with it so all is good.

So this week:

I collected my new glasses,

• I collected my new glasses
• I went to a church service
• I did some sewing, by hand and some by machine
• A reading for my sister
• Another row or two on mums sock
• The world descended into mayhem

So I picked up my new glasses, it took them long enough to come. I was starting to think that they had forgotten all about me. What’s more annoying about the whole thing is that a few days before they were ready I got a survey text asking me how they did. I didn’t reply at the time and it’s safe to say I just haven’t bothered. If I did reply when I got the message things wouldn’t have been so nice. Having to get your glasses fitted whilst wearing a mask is pretty awkward and it isn’t that accurate. My glasses fit right when I had a mask on but once it was taken off my new glasses started to slip down my nose. At some point I have to go back and get them sorted.

I went to a church service. First time in a long time church opened again. It was great to see people in real life especially when I’ve only seen them through a computer screen for the past god knows how long. The service was really good. It was shorter than they used to be because there’s no singing anymore. You could probably say that’s a good thing though lol. I wasn’t on the platform but I know from past experience it can be funny up there while everyone is singing away with the hymns. Up there you seem to hear everyone singing, or should that be whaling. Bob Dawson was the medium for the night and I love the services he does. I just find them really fun and entertaining. I did get a message though which was nice. It was from my gran, she was cleaning the cotton wool out of my head to help me get some clarity on what’s going on at the moment. I liked the message and it was really nice to get one on the first service back.

Sewing by hand and machine. Friday and Saturday I decided I wanted I new face mask. The one I have has faded so now fits gone from bright yellow to more of a lemon colour. I spent some time digging around online looking for a pattern and thought I found a good one. It had different sizes and a video showing how to do different bits and stuff like that. I decided I wanted an orange mask. The yellow one I did was made of all cotton fabric but after the online digging and looking about lots of places were selling poly-cotton for masks and as I’d got a load that up until recently was being used to decorate the bare wall in the dining room I thought I’d try that. Well the mask came out ok ish. I was doing this one by hand so I couldn’t follow the pattern/instructions to the letter. I added a small panel for a nose wire (pipe cleaner) and thought it would be ok. It had all been washed and stuff before and after the sewing and I decided that church would be it’s grand unveiling. So got to church and put it on before we went in. I think I put up with it for a grand total of 10 minutes. No idea why but it made my nose really, really itchy. I had my yellow mask with me too so I decided it was time for a costume change. So out came the yellow mask and a swap over was done.

I said I wanted a new mask but this time I just couldn’t be arsed doing it by hand so I asked katie if I could borrow her sewing machine. She dropped it off this morning. Being all prepared and stuff I cut the fabric and washed it all so it was ready to get going today. So went into the dining room an set to work. The sewing machine was there. I knew that I needed to wind the bobbin with the same colour thread I was using for the new mask this time a lovely lime green colour. So I take out the bobbin from its little home and after a quick YouTube video I had that set up and winding along merrily. The fun came when I tried to put the bobbin back in,”. What I didn’t realise when I took a t out I should have only taken the bobbin bit out and not the rest of the bobbin bits as well. So after asking super dad the knower of all things for help he came in and after a bit of jiggery pokery he got it sorted. The strange bit for me was the fact I threaded the machine without help and without having to consult google. Go me!! So once everything was back together I was ready to start.

Did the first two seams with no issues and one at the top. Time for the bottom seam.as thing we’re a little on the larger side I decided that I could go in a little bit further to make it fit right. So, yeah, I went in a bit too far and the mask ended up to small. So after asking mum if it would fit her before I had to unpick the seam it did so it save me a job. Just had to add 2 elastic ear loops and sew up the sides. Then mask number 2 done. So one that made my nose itch and this one too small. So I decided to try and be lucky with attempt number 3.

This time I decided to go back to all cotton. I couldn’t find the template I’d used in the past to decided to use the itchy nose one and make it a little bigger. This time I decided to go for a fetching purple. Had a thread with an exact match and even remembered to wind the new colour onto the bobbin. Luckily the old colour had just run out so I didn’t have to either search for a new bobbin or dump the unused thread. This time when taking out the bobbin, remembering the lessons from earlier, I only took out the bobbin and not the rest of the bits. And sewing this mask started.

Seam number 1, no issues.

Seam number 2, all good.

Oh shit, realised I had things in the wrong order. Should have do one bit with one layer and the other with two. Never mind, I can bodge this and when sewing it all together I can put the layers in order so each side has three.

Top seam, worked up a treat and the crisis was averted.

Bottom seam, straight forward and pretty neat.

Attached the cords, turned the right way out and sewed up the sides and……….(drum roll)………….

After putting a card reading/message on the Facebook crystal group last week or the one before Katie decided that she wanted me to give her a reading. I don’t like giving readings to people I’m close to because when it comes to discussing things and giving evidence I’m never sure if the information I’m giving is from spirit or if it’s just me remembering things. But, the reading went well despite me almost getting really emotional at times and crying. Well, Dex is getting annoyed with his great grandmothers doing the parental thing and looking after him when he just wants to be independent and do everything himself. He’s also a leg hugger and if he was here he would be a little cheeky pain in the arse (in a good way) and the unsung his big brother Harvey up. Katie said she liked the reading and felt better afterwards so I take that as a good session.

On the subject of psychic/mediumship stuff I ran the development group online again on Friday. It was a good night and everyone involved got something out of it. Everyone managed to give a message or some information so good going to all of them. The funny bit during the session was while I was giving a guided meditation across some peoples screens animals decided to wander about. I’m not talking spirit animals here I’m talking real life pets. It was quite funny that while trying to give a guided meditation looking up and seeing a cats arse saunter across the screen. Seeing something like that when you’re trying to be all serious is quite funny, the hardest part is trying not to laugh out loud. That probably wouldn’t have helped people be all calmed and relaxed and it would have taken away from what I was trying to achieve. Afterwards I told people what had happened and the owners of the cat were very apologetic. I said they don’t need to be, the cat was just doing what cats do and that any type of healing, psychic and mediumistic work attracts animals and they find it comforting and healing. Anything like that pets love and are attracted to and that they don’t need to worry. There was the cat, some people with dogs had the dogs barking or trying to join in as well. It was a very active evening from a pet point of view. I even heard Zoe outside the dining room door huffing and puffing wanting to come in. Bits that was that and still everyone had a great session.

I did another row or two on mum sock. Still have about 4 inches to go on the foot but I’ll get there eventually. How long it will take I don’t know but I will finish it. At some point.

Last time I talked about having some teeth taken out. The holes are healing up nicely, or so I’m told. but I’m still getting a lot of pain but it’s not from the holes. Between my tongue and the holes is something that feel solid little sharp lump. It hurts to touch and is causing the pain and irritation. It hurst every time I open my mouth and whenever I eat something. No idea what it is so looks like there will be another trip to the dentist on the cards. When that will be I have no idea but I hope it will be soon. Like now or tomorrow, I just want this whole thing to be sorted.

Anxiety, I know I mentioned about anxiety last week about going to the dentist but Saturday and Sunday it was utter shite. During the service I started to feel uncomfortable. No idea why but thought it might have been something to do with being back in church and being somewhere there were a few more people than I’ve been around for a long time and that I was in church maybe picking up on something spirit related. On Sunday though things were a hell of a lot worse. I spent most of the day feeling absolutely petrified. I just felt scared senseless. I had no idea why or what was scaring me or making me feel uncomfortable. There were times I was even scared of saying something was scaring me. It was pants. After mum, the amazing lady that she is, eventually got me talkingwe decided that it could be something to do with the medication changes. Not only was my medication changed from amitriptyline to nortriptyline but the dosage was reduced by half. So we decide that it was probably that that was causing the anxiety. I remember in the deep dark recesses of my mind that the MS Nurses said that I was on amitriptyline for pseudobulbar affect (messed up emotions) so it would make sense that a change in that medication could effect me. So we upped the does and so far things seem to be going ok. The specialist that made the change from one triptyline to the other said it was ok to increase the dose if it was needed. It looks like it working at the moment so we just need to repel the GP so he can sort out prescribing more.

Anyway, virtual hugs to everyone.

Love and light.

What the hell is going through some peoples heads? I find myself asking that a hell of a lot lately.

Saw a news article over the weekend about an anti lockdown protest in London. They were also protesting about vaccines. I’m all for love and light but when people want to stop giving vaccines to children that stop them catching and dying from preventable diseases it really makes you think.

Would they be happy for their child to be marched in front of a firing squad with bad aim, where there is a better than even chance their child would die? The answer would be a resounding no. But this is the very thing they are protesting. “STOP VACCINATIONS, I WANT MY CHILD TO DIE FROM A PREVENTABLE DISEASE”.

The fact that the science they claim to believe has been disproven so many times doesn’t even seem to come into it. There is no scientific link between the vaccination process and autism. However, there is a link between a child catching and dying from a disease that the vaccination process prevents. For the love of god please keep kids safe.

You can also follow the government advice to keep yourself and others safe too.

This last week seems to have been one of anniversaries. Well there only been two that spring to mind but they’re both cool.

The first is going back ten years. It involves a trip to the theatre. It was in Blackpool. It involved lots of people having a good time. There was dressing up. There was singing. There were fishnets, basques, heels, pearls and a lab coat. If you hadn’t guessed it’s when I went to Blackpool with some friends to see The Rocky Horror Show. From what I remember it was a great night, plenty of partying, plenty of friends and Plenty of fun. I’ve no idea if I’ve shared pictures of this on here before but here are a couple of pictures from that night:

You have to bear in mind that when this happened I was straight and I was married. Now when you’ve finished laughing about that, that’s how I tried to be 10 years ago.

I have been a fan of the Rocky Horror Show for a long time. I think it started when I was about 10 maybe younger at a scorpion sailing nationals in Poole. Some of the older kids were listening to the soundtrack from the film, I heard it and my sister and I left determined at some point to see the film. So not long after that we saw the film and the rest, as they say, is history. I haven’t actually seen the film for a few years but I can almost guarantee that I still know the script word for word. In fact I can safely say I’m one of those really annoying people to be around when it’s on.

Watch this bit, do you see that person there, remember their face, you’ll see them again soon. All along with a running commentary of the script and the singing (badly) the songs and adding in the audience participation parts. Yes for normal film fan it’s bloody annoying but that film is awesome and the stage show is even better.

The role of Frank N Furter has been played by so many amazing people. From Tim Curry the star of the film to Duncan James (the guy from Blue) and loads of others, defat to many to mention. All of them have brought their own things to the iconic role.

Back to anniversaries. On 24 October it was 15 years since I completed my Reiki Masters. That in itself is something to be proud of. Yes I haven’t done much with it, I’ve only attuned one person and only practiced on friends and family but the fact I’ve been using reiki now for over 15 years is something special. I still see Reiki as a bit of a gateway drug to psychic stuff and mediumship as I’m sure that if I hadn’t done that so long ago I wouldn’t be who, what and where I am today. Spirit and psychic wise, I do not blame it one bit for the fact I’m gay or disabled but it has helped me to come to terms and deal with these things.

Talking of Reiki I said last week that I was planning a reiki share, it happened and went really really well. It was all online and it was a bit different because of that but everyone involved got something from it. New ways of working and different experiences. It was great to have time to talk to people about the way they use reiki, swap ideas and experiences and different ways of working. Not that you’re interested but here are my reiki certificates:

So the other things I’ve been doing this week are working with stamps and alcohol markers:

I’ve also coloured in a couple of digi stamps but I haven’t got pictures of them. I haven’t done much if any tangling this week. I’ve had new toys and crafty bits to play with. I have made a paper flower though:

I’ve done a card reading for the crystal group on Facebook and a bit of card making but nothing major arty really.

One of the big things that happened this week is that I had a trip to the dentist to have some teeth taken out. In the past going to the dentist hasn’t bothered me. This time I was scared shitless. I think that was partly down to the fact I had built it up and had been mulling it over for a few weeks and the change in medication.

It went without a hitch, the dentist explained things clearly and slowly and talked me through the process and let me know what to expect. He even told me that if I feel any pain to let him know and he would use more anaesthetic. Everything he did made me feel so much better and easier about the process. He did the injections which were painful and uncomfortable and then gave it a few minutes to take effect then the work began. The first thing he did caused a bit of sensitive type pain. I told him and true to his word another injection with more anaesthetic then everything was fine. The most painful part of the process was the first injection, that hurt. The most uncomfortable part while it was happening was my top lip kept catching between the tools he was using and my front teeth. Afterward, when the anaesthetic had worn off, there was some discomfort and pain in my jaw, not the holes that were left. My jaw hurt because of the way he had to hold my jaw to pull out my teeth. I think the fact I’m almost constantly drugged up has helped keep any other pain at bay.

A bit of a gross thing happened when I started with salt mouthwashes yesterday though. While I was eating I kept feeling something flapping about in the back of my mouth. I asked mum if it was normal to feel a fall of skin or something where the teeth had been taken from. She said it was and I didn’t think anything else of it until last night when it started to really get annoying. So I got mum to have a look and see if everything was ok. So lay on my back on mum and dads bed with my mouth open and mum looking in my mouth using a torch. She said there’s something there. She thought it was skin. She went to pull on it but didn’t get that far due to the fact I cringed and held her hand back. But she said that after a salt mouthwash the skin flap would probably just fall out. So off to the kitchen I go to sort out the mouthwash and after the first few swills out of my mouth falls a piece of cotton gauze. I thought it was vile but carried on with the mouth wash to try and clean out anything else that might be in there. After that I went back upstairs and asked mum to have another look and see if there was anything else in there. Me slightly stressing thinking oh my god I’m going to lose my jaw because something is in the whole and I’ll get an infection and blah blah blah that all ended with my jaw either falling of or needing to be removed. That just the way my fucked up brain works and it always goes to the worst possible outcome of any situation. So yeah mum had another look and she said everything looks clear. I’ll be carrying on with the salt mouthwashes for a while as it’s one of the best ways to clean the area and help it heal. Reiki an other things will help that along too. The only thing now is that my tongue keeps brushing round the area and it keeps wanting to dig about in the holes that are left. I’m trying to not doit but that’s not as easy as it sounds. The good thing is though that I’m not getting any pain or discomfort from it.

That’s enough about my essay about going to the dentist. Last week I wanted to talk about a poem/song I came across while watching Family Guy. During the episode Peter sang the song Halfway down the stair after getting his head stuck through the banister slats. Anyway after hearing bits of the song I started digging, I found a you tube video of the song being sung by Robin from the muppets (Kermit’s nephew) after that I found that it was actually a poem by A A Milne here’s the poem:

Halfway down the stairs
is a stair
where i sit.
there isn’t any
other stair
quite like
it.
i’m not at the bottom,
i’m not at the top;
so this is the stair
where
I always
stop.

Halfway up the stairs
Isn’t up
And it isn’t down.
It isn’t in the nursery,
It isn’t in town.
And all sorts of funny thoughts
Run round my head.
It isn’t really
Anywhere!
It’s somewhere else
Instead!

The reason this got my attention was that it rang true for what Harvey does while he’s here. If dads watching something on TV and I’m in the dining room he sits on the stairs watching his iPad. Either way I thought the poem fit and rang true for him and I think the poem is quite good anyway.

This weekend I’ve become a fit of a fan of The Mentalist on Fox. I seem to find it really interesting and it’s one of those where I’ll pause it if I have to leave the room. I think I’ll have to do some digging and see if I can binge watch the series somewhere.

So yeah, that’s it from me at the moment. Stay safe and stay healthy.

Love and light.

So it’s been another 2 weeks since my last post. I’d like to say I’ve spent the time sunning my self abroad. But, I haven’t, I hate hot sunny days and going abroad is a lot easier said than done at the moment.

So what have I been up to?

Again I’d love to be able to give you a full blown list of things I’ve been doing but sadly I’m not that exciting.

I’m a bit further along on the second sock for mum. The heel flap has been done and it has been turned. So just the heel gusset, the foot and the toe left to do.

Not that you care but here is the work so far:

There has been some tangling and some card making, some other arty farty bits an eye test, some antibiotics and medication changes.

So let’s start with drugs. So had a telephone consultation with a pain consultant. The most shocking thing is that he actually listened to me. It wasn’t the one I’ve seen before so he might not have got the memo about offering no help, lose weight, reduce medication and move more but he actually listened to me. Yes towards the end of the conversation the brain decided to stop working and get completely baffled so the call was handed over to mum but changes to medication are happening.

So amitriptyline is being changed to nortriptyline. It can’t just be a straight swap I have to reduce the amitriptyline first then change over. So today is day 2 of the reduced dosage of amitriptyline. Well it’s only been just over 24 hours since the dosage went down. This was the thing that has most worried me. Because of the messed up brain and emotions partly kept under control with the help of drugs I was scared that the change in meds would completely and utterly mess me up. I did some digging and it turns out that both of these drugs have a similar effect so that eased my mind slightly. I know from passed experience when I’ve missed a dose that I haven’t been right for a few days after so I think you might understand my fear. The dose has been halved and it’s like this for a few days then the changeover happens. Well that’s what mum said anyway when she sorted my next lot of pills.

So that’s one lot of drugs now onto the antibiotics. No idea why when I say or type that word the little song about antibiotics being wonderful pills goes round in my head. Anyway that’s enough about that. in the last post I talked about the issues I had with my teeth. On Wednesday or Thursday just gone I started getting an absolute shit load of pain in my mouth from the problem teeth. It got to the point that the pain from them was worse that the rest of the normal pain I get and that’s saying something if you look at the list of pain meds I’m on. They didn’t touch it, I was in agony and asked mum to call the dentist and see if they could fit me in and just take the bloody things out. Of course not wanting to see her little darling crippled son in pain she did. The dentist people asked a couple of questions like is it painful? Does it cause issues eating or sleeping? Is there a strange or metallic taste in the mouth. The answers to the questions was yes but they didn’t have any space to fit me in. But they did say it sounds like I have an infection and prescribed some antibiotics and said that if it is an infection they can’t do any work until it’s cleared up because if they did it could cause more trouble. So I was gutted expecting to have to spend another week in pain and feeling shitty from the antibiotics.

So I started taking the pills and was extremely shocked the next day when the pain was almost gone. I’ve decided that the pills they gave me are magic gryffindor pills, just because they have really really helped and that they are the colours of the gryffindor house from Harry Potter. I think the problem was because there is a hole in one of the teeth some food or something got stuck and caused the infection. Either way the pain has almost gone and there is only a few more days left of the antibiotics. So as always I’ll finish the course even though I’m feeling better. Only a few more days to go before the teeth and the pills will be gone.

I think I mentioned the super strong toothpaste last time. I said it was like sensodyne but on smack, I actually figured out that it’s over 3 times stronger than that. Other than the pain and infection with all this extra extended teeth brushing the dry mouth hasn’t been that much of an issue. It’s been there every now and then but nowhere near as bad as it has been.

As a side note to go with the toothache I could not find the bottle of clove essential oil I have. I’ve never tried clove oil for toothache before but as it’s an old home remedy I was willing to give it a shot. Of course when I needed and wanted it it was no where to be found. Low and behold what should turn up tonight? The bottle of clove oil. I haven’t used it in my mouth but it’s in my oil vaporiser thing at the moment making my room smell all clovey. Tonight’s blend is clove, lemon, cinnamon and orange.

So that’s drugs out the way.

On to artsy stuff. I’ve already talked about the sock (I feel like there should be a duh duh duh sound effect there) there’s been tangling, watercolour painting and card making.

Here are some of my tangles (not sure if I’ve shown them before or not):

Here is my watercolour work:

And here are my cards or bits of them:

So that’s it for the arts and crafts section of the update.

I had an eye test last week. You know the one I was told wouldn’t help by one person and then that I needed to go for one by someone else? Yeah that one. So had an eye test and my prescription has changed but only slightly and that I should update my glasses and get a new pair. So new glasses chosen and ordered just waiting for them to come in then they can be fitted.

Coke, coke, coke and more coke. I think I can safely say that since my last update I have not had one single full fat fizzy drink. Wooooooo go me. That deserves a party if nothing else, socially distanced of course. So fizzy drinks yes but only sugar free ones. Diet Irn Bru, Irn Bru Xtra, Coke Zero and Diet Fanta. There have been times I’ve been tempted but I have resisted.

Other things, I’ve finally got round to starting to organise an online distant reiki share. I’ve only been talking about it for about 3 years. But now it’s actually going to happen.

I’ve still be doing a lot of other work with reiki. I’ve been doing a few card messages/readings for the crystal group I’m in on Facebook. I’ve been using my Crystal Ally cards a lot recently to as well as playing with some crystals. I know ages ago I talked about doing a meditation with a meteorite chunk, that still hasn’t happened but it will one day. Some of my other cards have been coming out to play too. Ones I haven’t used for a very long time, the angel cards, ascended master cards, other tarot decks, some animal cards and some goddess cards. Some of them are Doreen Virtue cards and even though she has changed her tune and denounced all of the work she did and the cards she set up, I still like them so no worries there.

What the actual fuck is going on in some peoples heads where they think it’s fine to not wear masks, not be socially distant and take other protective measures? Ok, this virus may only be like a sniffle or a bad cold to you but for others, like me, it could be a one way ticket to the cemetery. It’s nothing to do with being controlled or living in fear it’s about being a nice responsible person and actually caring about someone other than yourself.

If you’re one of these people that thinks it’s ok to fanny about with other peoples lives I hope you don’t mind when your parents, grandparents, aunties, uncles and other family members drop dead because that’s what you could make happen.

Would you drive down the motorway at 100mph, using your feet to steer, with the rest of your family and friends in the car, making sure no one is wearing a seatbelt?

If you ask any sane person the answer would be no because someone is going to get hurt or killed. By not following the simple steps about masks, hand washing and social distancing this is exactly what you’re doing. You are going to kill someone.

Do you like being a MURDERER!!!!!!?

If you are one on these people, please, please please, I beg and implore you, wear a mask, start picking out coffins for your loved ones and fuck right off. You poor, insignificant, stool licking, pond scum fondling , piss bucket drinking, skid mark sniffing, twatwaffle.

Anyway big up to everyone else and a massive thank you to you and everyone else for following the rules and keeping me, yourself and everyone else safe.

And just for a bit of fun I saw this earlier and thought it was funny:

watch it and have a laugh.

Stay safe, love and light.

It feels like I’ve not posted anything for 6 months, I know it’s not that long but it feels like it’s been forever.

So what’s been going on?

Well the biggest thing at the moment is what’s happening with my mouth. I went to the dentist last week because I had really bad toothache. It’s like one of the first times I’ve had toothache, I don’t remember ever having it before. So yes, trip to the dentist. Well I had no idea what to expect and of course the anxiety had to join the party.

So there I am laying back in the chair trying to explain to the dentist what the issue was. This was on top of the pain, the confusion, the anxiety and the dry mouth. I got there in the end though.

He starts looking round my mouth and comments on how dry it was. I’m not talking dry like when you need a drink I’m talking desert like. Tongue sticking to random bits of my mouth, issues talking because of it and difficulty moving my lips because they’re stuck to my teeth. As he’s looking about he has a bit of a poke here and there and says that the dry mouth is affecting my teeth.

I learnt something new that the spit in your mouth has stuff in it that protects and replenishes your teeth as I have issues with dry mouth my teeth aren’t getting replenished the way they should do. He goes on to say that the tooth that was causing the issue isn’t right and is wobblyand the one behind it has a hole in it.

He then told me the different options. He said you can have root canal work that takes about 3 hours and could still result in losing the teeth or or he could just take them out.

So by this point I was totally lost and confused and had no idea what to do or even what was going on. I’m just glad that my mum was there to help me understand. She knew I was lost because of the dazed and confused look on my face and the fact I kept looking at her.

At the time I was just worried that if the 2 teeth had to come out that my mouth would collapse and I’d end up looking like one of the really old men that have taken out their false teeth. All I could think to ask was do you need the teeth?

Thankfully he explained things clearly and slowly so I eventually understood. He took one of the dentist X-ray things also said that I needed to go to hospital for a more accurate one that looked at all of the teeth not just the bits he got from his X-ray.

He also said that I don’t have to make a decision then and there. I think this was partly down to my confusion and the fact I needed things explaining. He gave me a prescription for some extra strong fluoride toothpaste (it’s like sensodyne but on smack) and for some spray to help with the pain from the tooth and the pain from certain foods. He also told me that my brushing was good but because of the dry mouth I needed to brush more and take even better care of my teeth.

So now I’m brushing my teeth for 4 minutes at a time with this special tooth paste. There seems to be no hope for the 2 teeth but the toothpaste should help protect the rest.

Obviously my mum talked to me about what she would do, when we got home we talked it through with dad and even got to talk to katie to get her opinion. So all 3 pretty much said get them out and have done with them. So after some thought and discussion I made the choice that they should just come out and not bother with the stress and strain that root canal work would cause especially if that it wasn’t guaranteed to work.

So after making the decision I got mum to call the dentist and say what I’d chosen to do. I still have to go for the X-ray and wait for a couple of weeks before the work can be done but at least I know it’s going to get sorted out eventually.

So what else have I been up to?

I’ve done a few more rows on the second sock for mum.so it’s about 4 and a bit inches long now. I’ve done some tangling:

I’ve also made some more cards:

The top one is a 21st card for a friend of the family and the thank you card if for the pharmacy team at Boots. It’s from mum to say thanks for the help while all her medication kept being chopped and changed. I’ve made one or two other cards but as they haven’t been given/sent out yet I’m not putting up any pics, just in case the people they’re for see this post.

I’ve also got back involved with the keystone crystals group on Facebook. I gave an apology for not doing anything with them for a long time and also gave some messages using some of my cards. I pulled two cards to help me make the apology and then another one just for a bit of a message for the group. Those posts seemed to go down well and there was a positive response from people too.

Oh the other major thing is, I’m cutting down on full fat coke. I know it doesn’t sound much but if you know how much I drank it’s a major thing. I’m doing on advice from the dentist I haven’t gone complete cold turkey but I only have at most 2 cans throughout the day now.

I’m just glad that there have been so many positive changes with diet drinks now. I used to hate diet drinks because of the fake sugar taste that they had but now I’m pleased to say that they do not taste anywhere near as bad as they did, in fact they are quite good.

Because of the issues with my teeth I’ve also been working with Reiki and Karuna a little bit more. Just giving my mouth and teeth a good blast at least once a day. The other thing I’ve been doing is trying to not eat or drink anything for about an hour after brushing my teeth just to give the toothpaste some time to do it’s thing. That can be a bit difficult because of the dry mouth though.

But hey ho that’s the way the cookie crumbles.

Love and light

So today marks 3 years since the diagnosis.

You’ve been with me on the bumpy ride so you know what’s been happening. If you don’t you’ll need to start at the beginning. Then carry on through the new bits.

So back to now…….dum dum dummmmmm.

It isn’t really that dramatic, but hey, I can be as dramatic as I want to be. So yeah still plodding along with the sock, honestly though I haven’t really been working on it. I haven’t really done much tangling either. The only thing tangling wise I’ve done is a bit more on my board. I’ve done some shading on it today but that’s it.

Card making and stamping has been a bit more active. I made one card:

It doesn’t look too bad. I need to work on getting the mats and layers straight but that will come with time and practice.I think the stamping and colouring looks pretty good too.

I have been playing with another type of card. It’s called a star card:

I was only playing and figuring it out so it wasn’t for a particular reason so it wasn’t a birthday card or something like that. But now I know what I’m doing with it it will be something to add to the crafty arsenal.

I’ve been out a couple of times with mum and dad. Went with mum into Bury to go to Boots for the drugs and to get a couple of other bits. Me mum, dad and Zoe had a trip out to the park yesterday. That was interesting partly because I had no idea what to expect other than to be pushed round in my chair.

Were there going to be loads of people? Is everyone going to be wearing masks? Are people going to keep their distance?

Well, there were loads of people, that makes me uncomfortable in general. But, it looked like most people were following the distancing rules, which is good and came as a bit of a pleasant surprise. Of course though I had my trusty wet wipes and hand gel at the ready.

It was great to see Zoe enjoying herself. Jumping in and out of the river, swimming, chasing sticks and at one point collecting stones from the river bed and bringing the out onto the side. I think she gets the rock thing from me and my crystals.

Yes I went out and I can’t say I was comfortable. I felt pretty on edge most of the time and as always hated that someone could come up behind me. I think I have become slightly agoraphobic. Well if that’s the case it’s just something else to add to the list.

I did have a bit of a breakdown the other day though. I was having a doom and gloom what if session. Where no matter what I thought about it went on and on to the worst possible outcome. So I could be thinking about something simple like going to the fridge to get a can of coke and it would end up where we had a full on home invasion where mum and dad get stabbed.

When these sessions start it can take some doing to get out of that spiral but no matter how scared I am of talking about it at the time it’s the best way to break the cycle.

The next few days are going to be interesting though. The foster person we have with us at the moment has to stay home from school because someone somewhere has tested positive for COVID. I’m not quite sure how it works but the person that tested positive had already been away from school for about a week. So the chances are very slim but if anyone else had been ill they would know by now. Anyway now everyone has to stay at home for another week. Now though a whole online school thing has been set up for them with lessons and stuff like that. So being the good boy that I am I’ve set up a profile for them on my laptop and moved all my tangling and crafting bits out of the way so school work can be done.

So that’s all, stay safe.

Love and light.

I think it’s Tuesday but I’m not sure, I could be wrong.

Earlier today I had loads of things to talk about but now I’ve sat down to type a post my mind has gone blank and I’m struggling to think of anything.

What fun it has been the last few days. All hot and sunny……. woo freaking woo. You know I’m not a fan of heat and I’m starting to feel a bit like a vampire. The main difference between me and a vampire is the fact I’m not good looking or loaded. So it’s a bit rubbish really.

So it’s time to talk about what’s been going on over the last week or so. At some point Katie came round and found my knitting. So yeah I’m back to knitting sock number 2:

So I’m just over 3 inches in. I’m only doing it in the evenings so I’m taking it pretty slowly I’m not rushing.

My new tangle board arrived on Saturday morning:

So that came and the thing with tangle boards they need to be tangled. I thought it was really pretty, just look at the grain on it. But yesterday I took the plunge and started working on it:

It’s coming along and I think it’s looking quite good. I think though that I need to find out how to add colour. Some people have added colour to their boards and I think mine needs some shading and some colour. What do you think?

That’s about it for crafty bits over the last week. Not much else has been going on really other than the usual. I can’t be arsed going into detail about them because I don’t want to focus on them.

What else has been going on?

There seems to be a lot of people that are moaning about wearing masks, having parties, social distancing and quarantine after holidays and stuff like that. These people are selfish murderers. They do not give a shit about killing someone or protecting others. But you can guarantee that they’ll be the first people complaining when a member of their family dies from COVID 19. They don’t care about anyone or anything, it takes the piss.

I think now when anyone complains about it or breaks the rules they should just be called out and given the title of murderer.

I saw something else on Facebook the other day that really did make me think what the fuck and it really pushed me off and I’m so glad that I have nothing to do with that world anymore.

Aren’t social gatherings banned? Do the rules put in place to protect people not apply to everyone?

If anyone gets ill ,which I hope doesn’t happen, the blame should be placed at the organisers feet. In the news someone somewhere was fined a stupid amount of money for organising an event or party or something. This seems to be happening all over the place and this is just showing how little some people care about others. What makes it worse is that the people that organised these events were saying that they were shutting down, losing money all to protect others not so long ago. They were going to charities and other places to get money because they were so hard done by, but then to go and do something so stupid and reckless really does take the piss. And it just shows that they don’t give a shit about anyone but them selves.

Aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhh, if you hadn’t of guessed these things really get on my tits. I’m not sure if this is because I’m one of the people that this virus could kill or if it’s because of the sheer lack of care people have for others. Either way you look at it, it’s just plain wrong and I’m sure as hell Karma will come round to bite them on the arse at some point.

So if you’re one of these people that don’t care about anyone else please go and fuck right off. If you care, which I hope everyone that reads this does, please stay safe and carry one caring.

Love and Light

How do you type the noise of something going past stupidly fast? I know the science behind it is called the Doppler effect so I’ll just go with that for now.

So, today has been here before I knew it. I know lots of people are having the days merging thing but I’ve lost hours and days along the way. I’m sat there at like 11 am and then the next thing I know it’s nearly 1pm.where the time has gone I do not know but I have suspicions that it gone on holiday to Bognor Regis.

Well some interesting things have happened in the last two weeks. Firstly I’d just like to point out that I am now a published artist. Get me! So I know I’ve mentioned the tangling in the past, well, one of the tangles I’ve done is now in a published book on Sanntangle. Here is the proof:

So yeah, a famous artist lol. It was even shown on TV:

If you’d like an autograph please send a stamped, self addressed envelope to:

Someone who gives a shit

I haven’t done other tangles this week because every time Sandra has been doing a Facebook live I’ve been out with mum and dad.

A while ago I said I was going to do a meditation with my meteorite. I still haven’t done it.

I made myself another face mask, this one is bright green but I’m not sure I’m happy with the elastic. I’ve gone for the loops round the ears thing but it doesn’t feel right so now I’ll have to decide if I want to in pic it and go for some of the cotton tape or if I should go for thicker elastic. So tie round the back of my head or elastic to go all the way round.

A massive great big thank you needs to go out to my sister this week. She trawled through tones of crap and cleaned my room. I am so grateful that she did it. It was a mess and was upsetting me. It didn’t take her long to sort it. For me I’d have no idea where to start and it would have taken me an absolute age. So great big thank you to Katie. I won’t go as far as a big sloppy smooch, she is my sister after all. Since it’s been done I get really happy when I go in my room and chuffed to bits that Zoe can come in and I don’t have to get worried that she’ll get hurt or poisoned or something really bad would happen to her.

So the other things I’ve been doing is a bit of paper crafting. Here is my first official home made card:

It’s pretty simple and there are things I’d like to change and do better but I don’t think it’s a bad first attempt. I now have a slowly building collection of stamps, some physical one and some digital. The digital ones are the ones I was colouring the other week.

That’s about it craft wise. I do keep thinking about getting that other sock done but the problem is I don’t know where Kate put the needles and yarn to do it. I’ll have to ask before I start digging and mess things up again.

Last time I talked about the blood test for vitamin B12. Well I got the results back. Drum roll please…………………. the results said I was at the lower end of normal. Go me for being normal, first time for everything I suppose. But they said that I should increase my vitamin B intake. So an order placed to Holland and Barrett for some vitamin B complex tablets. I have a theory why the vitamin B12 levels are low. I think it’s because I take omeprazol tablets. I can’t remember if I read it somewhere or if I just dreamt it but to break down Vitamin B12 and absorb it you need stomach acid. The omeprazol tablets reduce the amount of stomach acid so you can’t break down and absorb as much. True or not I don’t know but I’ll takes some supplements anyway and hope that helps.

So that’s about it for now.

Love and Light