Well I’ve had a bit of a dodgy weekend. Friday night was going well. I went to an AGM at the local spiritualist church. That was a bit boring but AGMs normally are. After that I did end up getting a bit of a history lesson and tour of the building and that was cool. But come bed time I was in absolute agony. Nearly everything hurt. It was only Saturday I noticed why. Being the bright spark I am I forgot to take my medication on Friday night.

I have learnt from this, I now know that my pills help me so much. Saturday I was completely off. My anxiety ran rampant and pain wasn’t great either. I also realised that opiates can help loads too. The pain was that bad that the Tranadol had to come out. It helped a bit with the pain but not much. It took some of the edge off it. I did realise that Amytriptaline helps me loads. It helps a bit with the pain and also keeps emotions and stuff like that in check too.

It’s so hard to explain how I was on Saturday. It was just a really really really bad day. Everything was completely off and I struggled like hell to get through.

Yesterday wasn’t that great either. I did remember my meds though on Saturday night. It was another painful day but that wasn’t all. I decided to pull back my knitting project and start that again so that’s one thing. During knitting it also came up that I was a psychic and a medium. I expected that when that happened that I would be burnt at the stake. That didn’t happen and people seemed really interested. So that was nice.

When it came to the evening I finished the last lot of pills that I had and no more we’re ready or set up. Going through the pull box and starting to set up some for today mum realised that we didn’t have all the pills that I needed or asked for on the prescription. So that stressed me out completely. I just got lost and had no idea what to do or what I was doing. Mum managed to calm me down.

Today mum made calls to find out what had happened. Again being stressed out and worried. Mum managed to sort me and the drug problem out. So just waiting for them now.

Pain is still always around and it’s becoming an old friend that I’m starting to accept and just put up with.

Anyway enough of me waffling.

Love and light.