Today has been a weird long and sometimes scary day. Last night I slept like shit which made today feel even longer and harder.

Today I ordered a new car. That in itself is quite confusing at the best of times but when I was tired and confused it was hellish. Most of the time I was struggling with not having a clue what the hell was going on. But mum and dad were with me and I trust them to make sure everything was ok, was right and above board.

It’s a mobility car so I suppose that makes things a bit easier. Or it’s supposed to anyway. But mum and dad said it was ok and like I said I trust them. This is what it should look like:

It should be fun and exciting anyway. Not that I know what’s really going on.

Pain has been around to today which has added to the fun.

The shocking and scary part of today is that my mum has had to be taken to hospital. She was having breathing issues and hasn’t been feeling that well for a couple of days.

Admittedly though my breathing has been off recently to. My puffers don’t have a clue what’s happening to them, they’ve been used quite a bit.

She’s been through A and E and it looks like she picked up a chest infection. They are keeping her in tonight and pumping her withIV antibiotics and other fluids. From a breathing point of view they’ve given her a nebuliser. She has puffers but because she was having issues with breathing she couldn’t use them properly so they weren’t helping or working the way they should.

I have to focus on the fact she’s in the right place and people are there to help her and get her sorted out.

So I didn’t spend the night stressing and worrying Katie took me to her house in an attempt to distract me. It helped a bit I have to say but at home now where my head can run wild. And it is running wild.

It’s all going through my head, I’ve got the car thing and worrying if I’ve made the right decision (I was like that before the messed up brain) there is the worrying about mum and all the hell from that is going on too. I’m hot, tired, dizzy and in pain. That’s all on top of the shit running through my head.

Ok it’s time to change the subject in an attempt to distract myself from the worrying.

Yesterday was a good day too. Knitting is back on. I’ve started a new projects. I’m making myself a cardigan thing to slob about in. At first I saw some wool that I thought about doing it in. Then I added it all up and decided paying £60+ for wool for a jumper thing that I’m only going to slob about in is stupidly outrageous. So I went for some basic wool and with the use of a voucher it came to a grand total of £7.80. Which I think is pretty good especially when I was thinking it would be closer to £30 if not more. So far I’ve only managed to do 3 rows but I’ll get there. I’m determined that this is going to be my major project focus.

There will be other things that come along but that’s just me liking to flit about. It reduces the boredom and monotony.

Friday afternoon I was doing some needle felting. Something simple like stones. Sounds easy huh? Let’s just say it caused me pain. I accidentally ended up stabbing my finger. I did it not once, not twice but 3 times. The first two hurt a bit but nothing new the 3rd one was really painful and ended up going quite deep. That one has caused some lingering pain. It’s still sore. When I did it the needle actually broke. I was worried that it had broken off in my finger but had Katie check it and she decided there was noting in the wound. So there is part of a needle floating about somewhere. So I had to order a few more needles to replace the broken ones.

Another fun thing happened yesterday. I did a Facebook live stream of mediumship. Wasn’t picking people to read for it was just opening up and seeing who came through. It was all in the hands of spirit, it was hard work and tiring but I enjoyed it and other people did too. That was fun.

Saturday night was development group and church, got some great and lovely feedback from that too. Was told that people enjoyed and got something from the sessions I was doing. That was a great boost.

There will be other things that have happened but I can’t think of them right now. All I ask is please send out some love, light and healing for my mum and anyone else that may need it.

Love and light…….