Oh my god. I haven’t posted anything for about 2 weeks.

I’m sorry.

Have to say though things haven’t been that great for me. Today has been the worst though. Today I feel absolutely crap, loads of pain, fatigue and dizziness. The dizziness has been the worst I’ve had for a while. Every slight movement, even closing my eyes sends my head spinning. So I’m moving extra slowly, oh the joys with that. I feel like I look like I’m in my 90s.

I woke up this morning not having a clue what day it was, where I was and what was going on. That’s fun, just imagine yourself like that. It isn’t nice. Then to top it all off you feel like you’ve been drinking far to much.

Anyway I’m still here and fighting. What’s been going on for the last 2 weeks. Let’s start with knitting and crochet. Recently knitting wise I’ve been carrying on with my baby blanket. That’s coming along slowly. I enjoy doing it but every time I pick it up I get distracted after a couple of rows.

Crochet has been a different story though. I’ve completed 3 animals. A bunny, a fox and an aardvark. I think they look really cool. What do you think?

The other week I went with my mum to man a stand at Oldham Royal Hospital for baby loss awareness week. The subject of the stand isn’t really that nice to think about but it’s something that happens and people need to know about it. On that stand there were different things that the midwives give to mothers how have lost a baby. There were some really tiny baby hats. So there I am sat in a busy part of a hospital counting the stitches. Then once I figured that out I started knitting. So there is now another hat to add to the collection. It’s tiny but cute and hope it helps some families to heal:

as it was baby loss awareness week it finished off with a wave of light. I didn’t go to the garden with my sister, parents and nephew but I went to church and joined in the wave of light there. I have the candle going before and during the service.

yes it’s an electric candle but due to insurance rule it couldn’t be a real candle. I wanted to leave it there but was told it’s likely to end up going walkies due to other people that use the building. It’s sad but safer to be at home.

I’ve done some felting too. I’ve made quite a few wet felted balls, that’s just because. I’ve also made a seal. as it’s Halloween in a few days I made a banner with ghosts, pumpkins and a bat.

they’re small but cute. I also made a larger pumpkin that’s blowing raspberries to all the bad juju that’s about at the moment.

Spicy food has also been a bane for me. I love spicy food and food with lots of flavour but I can’t eat it anymore. It physically hurts my mouth so I’ve had to stop. Bland food is boring.

I went to a gong bath last week to. I love them and they make me feel so much better.

Obviously I’ve been to church aswell. Saturday just gone was development group. I ran the session, there was a new member too. I think though that everyone that went got something from the session so that’s always great. We did some energy work, talked about opening and closing, how to stop others impacting or stealing your energy and also how shapes impact you. So I got out my Platonic solids and got the group to change the shape of there energy field to the shape they picked and then say how it made them feel. So yeah think people that were there got something from it.

I asked the new person what she thought and she said she enjoyed it so all is good.

Anxiety has been playing up recently to. I’m fighting it but finding it hard to control. I know most of the things that set it off are stupid but that doesn’t stop it happening.

I also got the date for my members service. Only a couple of weeks to go but that will be the next step on that journey.

I bought something online today. I bought a Turkish Drop spindle. So I can start spinning my own yarn. At the moment I’m thinking it could be time to spin my own yarn and then go on to knit it or create something with that yarn. Been watching loads and loads and loads of YouTube videos on spinning yarn. It doesn’t look to hard but that mean it’s more than likely almost impossible. So a bit excited about that. It will be interesting either way.

I also think I’m going to have to do another bunny. That’s for my sister. She wants one in the same wooo I used for the aardvark. So that’s going to happen soon. The yarn is so soft and cuddly it’s awesome.

Have no idea why but I seem to be tensing my jaw and grinding my teeth today. I don’t realise I’m doing it at first but when I do it takes some real effort to stop. But confusion and dizziness have been the most annoying things recently.

The crochet pattern books I have are amazing the patterns all look cool and they aren’t really difficult. After my sister’s bunny I’ll have to decide what to do next. I’m thinking she at the moment but that could change.

Right I’ll leave you to your crazy lives. Big it up.

Love and light