So much has happened over the past two months. And I’m sorry it’s taken so long to update you. I know I’ve apologised before but I really mean it this time.

So where to start. Let’s start with hypnotherapy. Back in April I came across a hypnotherapist. He was on one of the shows on SPTV talking about hypnotherapy, affirmations and living positively. You’ve probably guessed that over the past three years I have had real issues sitting down today my healing coursework. So it’s real issues with procrastination.

So I spoke to him to see what he would suggest or what he could do to help. He said that it’s something he could help with, so I booked an appointment. Because it’s not something I’ve ever experienced before I didn’t know what to expect. Part of me was worried that he was gonna hypnotise me and make me think I was a chicken or something like that. I know as a professional when someone seeks treatment that would never happen. But, it doesn’t stop you worrying about it.

So when the session came round we had a bit of a chat about what I wanted to get out of it, why I wanted the help and if I knew why I had issues with procrastination.

I told him I’ve always had issues with procrastination. At school I always left my homework to the last minute. I always had good intentions of starting homework as soon as I got it or on the night I got it. But never lasted. I always fell back to doing it at the last minute. So the first part of the session put me into a meditative state and he started talking to my subconscious so we could find out what was causing the issue in the first place. While we were doing that something came up that I didn’t even remember. It was a memory of when I was at primary school with a teacher I didn’t go on with and didn’t like. The memory was of her telling me off and telling me I was useless and that I’d never come to anything.

Obviously as you can tell that wasn’t something nice I really wanted to remember. So he asked me more about that memory and how it was making me feel. As you can guess, it didn’t make me feel that good. He brought me out of the meditative state so we could talk a bit more about the memory. It was weird because at first I didn’t really remember it happening. It was a bit like a vague memory. You know when you can almost remember something happening but you’re not really sure what. That’s how I thought about it. So we talked a bit more about the memory and it started to become fuller and more solid. I remembered more about the situation and more about what happened.

Then, he started to do an exercise with me where I was moving my eyes from left to right, up and down and diagonally from right to left and left to right. While I was moving my eyes he told me to focus quite intensely on that memory and how it made me feel. I have no idea what he was doing or what was going to happen but, I trusted him.

Don’t know if I’ve told you this or not but making rapid eye movements can make me really really dizzy. For some reason moving my eyes like that makes my brain decide that my body is moving even though it isn’t.

So I found out that this eye movement thing is called EMDR. It’s about using eye movement to process memories and unresolved trauma from your past. So we did it once then asked me to go back to that memory and asked me how it made me feel then. So that time when I look back at their memory I didn’t feel as bad but, I didn’t feel brilliant either. So he went through the EMDR again with me, and when I look back at that memory this time I just thought it was funny and that that teacher was a stupid bitch. After that in my mind he told me to go back to that child and tell them that everything is gonna be alright and that stupid teacher doesn’t know what they’re talking about.

Once we had gone through processing that memoryhe took me into a hypnotic state to start to work on removing and reducing procrastination. The meditation/hypnosis was very relaxing and afterwards he suggested listening to a recording of affirmations to help with procrastination overnight while I slept. Admittedly after the session I wasn’t really sure if it had worked or not because there were quite a few other things that I had to do and get on with.

But a day or two later when I had got everything else out the way I sat down to start working on my healing coursework. And with no real issues I got going, started working and started flying through the rest of the work I had to do. And a couple weeks later I managed to get my last piece of work completed and sent off to my tutor. So all of the healing coursework has been done sent and I’ve received a completion letter to say that I have finished the coursework and received a Very Good Pass.

So that’s it the coursework finished. The next thing I have to do is an upgrade assessment to become a fully accredited healing medium with the SNU. It’s right now I’m waiting for the district people to get back in touch and tell me when the upgrade assessment is. So I’m a bit worried about that but people keep telling me I’m gonna pass it with no issues.

Another thing that’s been going on with me started with a trip to the dentist. While I was there the Dentist looked at my teeth and they’re all fine, when he was feeling around my jaw he found a lump. He said because he can’t see what it is he needed to refer me for further investigation. The good thing was that my teeth are all okay but the referral thing and the lump made me a bit worried. I have no idea what it is, could it be something normal or could it be something bad. The Dentist did say it probably isn’t anything to worry about, but that doesn’t really stop the worrying though does it.

The referral came through pretty quickly. Within a couple of days I had an appointment at the maxillofacial department at the hospital. Again I went to that appointment not really knowing what to expect. Part of me was worried that I was gonna be told I’ve got a massive tumour growing in my neck and the other part of me was worried about the unknown not really knowing what was going on. The doctor at that appointment said “it’s probably nothing to worry about but will send you for some tests anyway”. So a couple of days later I got a phone call saying can you come tomorrow for an appointment where they can scan the lump and see what’s going on.

My sister took me to the scan appointment. It was Oldham Royal, which if you didn’t know is absolutely massive. So after a couple of details round the hospital going in and out of doors and up-and-down in lifts we found where we were supposed to be going. My sister came into the appointment with me so she could pay attention to what was being said and remember the bits that I didn’t.

So they started scanning my neck and said it looks normal but they need to aspirate it to send off a sample to see what it is. He said it looks like a swollen lymph gland. Aspirate basically means shove a needle in, poke out a bitand draw out some of what’s there. So that’s what he did shoved the needle and poked around drew out some fluid and put it on a slide to be sent for more investigation. The guy that was scanning did say it probably wasn’t anything to worry about. He said they can swell up due to something with the immune system like fighting off a cold or something like that.

About two weeks later I received a letter:

So all the worrying was pretty much pointless and it wasn’t anything serious. So the point in a few weeks they might tell me what it is if they know.

So they have talked about a lot of things that have been going on with me.

On to Knitting, I finally finished knitting the cardigan for Lucy.

So that’s that Knitting project finished, back onto the shawl for Mum. I’ve been working on that again for the past couple of weeks now and now I am on to the last row which is putting a pico edge around the border. I’ll show you a picture of that when it’s finished. It should be finished at the next Knitting session on Thursday.

I just need to decide on my next project now. I keep thinking I want to do something with Tunisian Crochet, but at the moment I can’t find a pattern for something I want to make. I want to make a jumper or a Hoodie for myself but I can’t find any patterns for things I like. So if I wanna stick with Tunisian Crochet I might end up making a blanket or something like that. I’ll keep looking though and hopefully I’ll find something.

I’ve still been doing all of the crafty things like Sanntangle and card making. Here are the tiles I’ve done over the past few weeks:

Sticking with Sanntangle there have been a couple of other projects I’ve been working on. Here is the toucan from the menagerie set:

While working on the toucan I did find out that they have blue legs and feet. Totally unrelated I just thought it was an interesting fact.

Another Sanntangle project I’ve been working on is from Sandra’s first online class in a long time:

I still haven’t finished it but as you realise I’ve had quite a bit going on in the last month.

I’ve still made some cards though:

So I’ve made a few birthday cards and an anniversary card.

In the last post I talked about how I was worried about the disability benefit reforms. So I emailed my local MP who organised a meeting to listen what disabled people in his constituency had to say about it. So I went to that meeting and you’ll never guess what was happening outside. They were digging up the road between the car park and the way into the building where the meeting was:

I had to be helped to across the road in my wheelchair by some of the workmen. As they dug up the road the curbs were a lot higher than normal on the road surface wasn’t very smooth so it was very difficult to cross it in my chair.

Despite the joys getting to and from the event it seemed like all of the disabled people there felt exactly the same as I did about the proposed reforms. But it did seem like the MP and his team listened to our concerns. Whether anything comes from it or not is yet to be seen. But if you care about disabled people please please please email your MP and take part in the consultation online.

As I’ve gone a bit overboard giving you lots of information about lots of things that have been happening. I’m gonna show a couple more pictures that I think are you cute or funny

Talking of TikTok I have a few videos on there now the mainly lip sync videos of random songs. It’s a bit of fun but if you’d like to follow my account here is a link

@psychichumbug

I’m doing well on TikTok at the moment I have 2174 followers. That’s the thing I’ve been doing over the past couple of weeks I’ve been working to build my account.

And with that I think that’s about everything so I’m gonna leave it there and say

Love and Light