Why does it hurt so much.

Pain in my legs

Pain in my arms

Pain in my back

Pain throughout my body

Why do I have to go through it? Why do I have to live with it? Why oh why oh why.

It gets me down. It makes me tired.

It’s hard to deal with day in day out.

It’s there all the time and nothing seems to help.

Deep breaths don’t help, nothing takes the edge off.

Drugs don’t work, meditation doesn’t help, distraction doesn’t work all the time.

I just don’t know what to do.

I would love to go sometime without it. It’s becoming an old friend I just can’t seem to get rid of. It’s one I’d love to show the door. It doesn’t look like it will happen anytime soon though.

To say the pain is in my head makes it hard to explain. But that’s where it is. The damage that’s causing the pain is in my head. Well in my brain, in particular the nerves. That’s what is damaged and causing the pain that’s everywhere.

Normally you don’t want to go without anything but this is something I’d love to go without. Just to get rid. Even for a short time I’d love that but I don’t know how. It’s hard to deal with. It’s there all the time, sometimes it’s easy to dea with and sometimes it’s not. Dealing with chronic pain that’s there all the time is not the easiest of things. I’m not the only one that’s fighting and invisible battle. There are many people all over the world that are fighting right along with me. All our battles are slightly different but going to war everyday takes its toll.

There are others that fight battles, maybe with mental health issues like depression or anxiety. Some battles can be seen and some can’t. I think the moral of this is that you have no idea what other people are going through so be nice and give everyone support and compassion. Just to do that would make people’s suffering less and maybe it will help them out of the dark place of pain, depression or anxiety.

All the love and compassion and light to everyone.