Last week I did something amazing. I did a service all on my own. so I did the prayers, the philosophy and the demonstration.
I was so nervous before hand you wouldn’t believe. I trusted spirit and knew they wouldn’t let me look stupid but it was the problems caused by MS that made the anxiety run rampant. But I got through it, I survived and I got some nice feedback from some people too.
Last Thursday was a busy day. We had knitting in the morning, while me and mum were there Katie and Dad finished sorting out the back garden ready for the new fence. When we got home I got Katie to take me to do a bit of shopping. That trip was interesting. Because it was half term we had a bit of company from Harvey and Mason. As the anxiety’s was already running high my brain was trying keep track of what I was doing, what katie was doing and what Harvey and Mason were up to. That is on top of what was happening around me at the time. Just a touch of sensory overload.
When we got back I got dad to run me down to church so I could chill out and spend some time on my own ready for the service. The week before I got that the philosophy needed to be on The Brotherhood of Man. I also tried to write out some prayers that I could use in the service. As I was writing them down they kept changing. Every time I tried to do a final version it changed. I went through quite a few pages in the green journal and in the end I just had to give it up as a bad job and let spirit take the lead and tell me what to do when the time came.
As people were arriving for the service I decide I was going to go out for a smoke. As I opened the door to go out some people came through. 2 of them were ladies that went to some of the dance classes I taught. It was completely unexpected. People just kept coming in. The service was one of the busiest ones we’ve had for a while.
I did it. At the end I got that feeling of amazing achievement. Then the anxiety came back in. I started to worry if people thought that it was rubbish. But Tracy was about and so was Pam and they both said it went well. Tracy and Pam are both great mediums and I respect them for that and as friends. Their comments made me feel loads better.
Being on the platform is great. When you’re up their and working they can help make you feel a bit better. The problem is though that they give it all back at the end and it comes back with a huge whack. So while people were cleaning up I needed to talk to some people about someone that came through that I didn’t feel comfortable dealing with in the service. So a few people wanted to claim him and I spoke to them all. Spirit are very clever. They’ll give one message that a few people can take and need to hear. I feel it helped the people that I talked to though so that’s always good.
That was the biggest thing last week. Another thing that happened was I had a telephone consultation with the pain team. As a result of that my medication is changing. I am changing from Gabapentin to Pregabalin. And it going to be a straight swap and that’s going to happen tomorrow. I have to say I am a bit nervous about how it will be and how it will affect me. There might be no problem at all, who knows?
So here are a few pictures of the bits I’ve done. Here are the tiles:
I’ve made a card:
No idea if that’s right. It’s football related and as if you didn’t know I loath the very existence of football.
The octopus has been put on hold and I’m now crocheting a baby blanked for a friend. No pictures yet but it’s quite easy and it’s looking good.
I’ve also been playing with a new die set. It’s the paper village collection by Tim Holtz.
I’ve made a church and 2 houses. But I’ve painted one of them and it looks awesome. Here is a picture of the church:
Here is the house:
I finished colouring the dragon and that looks awesome too:
Thank you for the help and advice Sandra. You truly are awesomer than awesome.
And pay but not least doesn’t the the mark on this foster look like a slug or the ghost dog from nightmare before Christmas?
With that love and light.