There are a few things that have been playing on my mind recently.

Well, running through it.

Well, maybe, freely meandering. (Some would say that there isn’t much else going on in there)

The first is what the fuck is going on in the world? When did asking for love, acceptance and inclusion become a bad thing? There are people in the world that seem to think that all people being treated fairly and equally somehow means that they are being oppressed. That their outdated, pre historic views and opinions (that need to and should change) are being ignored. Their views are generally that they are more important than everyone else and other people don’t matter because they are different and that difference is somehow evil, wrong and should be ignored and silenced at all costs.

There have been armed protests by far right activists, Christians and N%£is against LGBTQIA+ events. In the last couple of weeks there was a mass shooting in Club Q in Colorado Springs where 5 people were killed (you have probably guessed this happened in the home of mass shootings the USA). Those 5 people were Daniel Aston, Kelly Loving, Ashely Paugh, Derrick Rump and Raymond Green Vance. Club Q was a safe space for LGBTQIA+ people and someone went in with some guns and started shooting and killing people. The thing (doesn’t deserve to be classed as human in my opinion) that started shooting and killing people has been formally charged with 305 counts, including charges of first-degree murder, attempted first-degree murder, assault and bias-motivated crimes causing bodily injury.

I’ve taken the names and other information about the charges from a CNN report. ( https://amp.cnn.com/cnn/2022/12/06/us/club-q-shooting-suspect-charges/index.html )

After this disgusting event there were some religious groups that claimed that it was a good thing that LGBTQIA+ people were killed. They claim being a member of the LGBTQIA+ community is wrong and evil and gives you a direct ticket to the hot fiery place when you die. And that teaching children about the queer community and that queer people exist is indoctrinating kids to be a member of that community and sexualising them. Sane people know this isn’t the case.

Drag story time is one of the things that has brought out armed protests in America. Sane people realise that these events are aimed at children and are in no way adult. These are sessions when a drag performer reads a children’s book. These sessions are all about creativity, love and acceptance. The main lesson is that LGBTQIA+ people exist in the world and that it’s ok to be different.

Why do people in 2022 nearly 2023 still believe that people like me are wrong and shouldn’t exist?

Things like this aren’t just happening in America. They are happening all over the world. There have been things happening in Australia where events have had to be cancelled for the safety of performers and attendees.

All over the world people are being attacked, killed or even taking their own life because they feel there is nowhere for them to turn to feel loved, accepted or just get the basic level of help and support.

Things need to change and they need to change soon.

I have just found out that someone from the dance world that I was very close friends with has passed. She was an amazing woman. Right now I’m broken and don’t really know what to say or do. !It’s taken me 2 days to write that first bit and I’m still not sure that I got the point across that I was trying to make.

I hate having messed up emotions. I know I’m gutted about the loss of a friend. Im angry about the LGBTQIA+ things I mentioned earlier. There is pain, dizziness, frustration, anxiety and other emotions and feelings all mixed up in there too.

Here is a picture of Carol that came up in my Facebook memories today.

It just reminds me of all the fun and craziness that we used to get up to when out dancing.

Thank you Carol for everything you did for me. Love you Ma’ Baker

Normally this is where I would talk about everything that’s been going on over the past couple of weeks but it just doesn’t feel right. Maybe I’ll do another post in the next few day but right now I’m going to call it a day.

Love and light

PS, I asked some friends for help to check that I was getting my point across and that things made sense (I know they don’t always but this was important. One friend I asked said this and I felt it needed to be included:

Unfortunately it’s not just America. Brazil is one of the worst countries for trans related murders, some killed by family members. When we live in a world of binary and hetro constructs it’s difficult for those who live outside of those social ideas. The world hasn’t been constructed for non gender/sexuality confirming people even though it’s been a norm for millennium. Governments and political parties find it easier to put blame on minority groups to take the heat of themselves. Divide and rule. That way they keep their power. The individual doesn’t matter unless they can use them fir their own ends. In Uk there’s increase in hate crimes towards LBGTQ+ groups, partly because of people spouting crap and the wife of a BBC exec being a self confessed Terf.