So for a few weeks I’ve been thinking of asking if I could do a service with Tracy and last week I decided it was time.

Well it could have been me or more than likely it was them up there that made the decision for me. So Tuesday night I was going to ask if I could do a service with Tracey. At the end of the service I was going to send her a message asking if I could.

Then I was told she would be on Thursday night. I have to admit I did have second thoughts about asking. But, I took the plunge and sent the message. She said I could join her at the service on Thursday. So after that message the stressing and worrying started.

What if I don’t get anything? What if I make a fool of myself? What if I’m stood there and nothing happens? What if I have a breakdown freak out thing?

That’s just the stuff that goes through my head most of the time anyway from the anxiety. But, it gets worse when something like that is coming up.

Thursday rolled round. It was only the day after next so it didn’t take that long. So a bit of extra stress and worry for the day.

The service started, it was a quiet one, there was only about 8 people there and I knew 7 of them and 1 of the 7 was mum. I did the opening prayer, Tracy did the philosophy and then the demonstration started. I trusted spirit so I knew they wouldn’t let me mess up but it still didn’t help the stress and anxiety.

We took it in turns giving messages. And everyone got something from the messages I gave and at the end of the service Tracy asked when I would be doing services on my own. So I think I can safely say that night I did medium type things.

I’ve made a couple of cards this week but they’re for Christmas and I don’t want to share them in case the people they’re for see them.

I have made a birthday card for my auntie though.

It changed for a few times but I think the finished card looks alright.

On to tangling I’ve done the usual tiles:

During the week I also worked on a larger project using the feathers stencils:

I like it and I enjoyed doing it so that’s all that matters. Also on the picture I like to think the reflection/rainbow coloured flash is aprovel from the spirit realm. I know it’s only a reflection and I know it was the sun reflecting off my pipe but still it looks cool and I’m impressed with me work.

On Tuesday night there is a special on with some international mediums at church. So at weekend I went to help (not that I can do much like) clean up a bit and get things ready for Tuesday. I like to help where I can. So now church is all ready for the special night.

The mediums that are on have all been trained by Mavis Pittilla so it should be a good night.

I started writing this on Monday but it’s Tuesday now so things might not make sense (like that’s not normal).

I’m still knitting my octopus, 5 legs down now 3 to go then the rest of it.

I’ve made some cards and a box to put them in for the healing tree at church.

The cards are all sorts of different shapes. I used some of my nesting dies to cut them out and then I tied the silver elastic into all of them. So they should all look lovely on the healing tree.

I’ve also made a couple of note book/journals for some friends.one in silver and one in grey.

Just noticing though that they both look similar colours in that picture but they are different, promise.

So that’s about it from me.

See you all soon.

Love and light

Humbug