And now that song from Les Misérables is in your head. He he.

So I’m still alive. I survived a week on my own. Not quite sure how but I did it. I said last week that mum and dad have gone away and left me and Zoe all on our own. Well we got through a week, they’re still away and this is how much it’s impacting Zoe.

You can see she is majorly stressed and has t got a clue what’s going on.

There has only been 1 blip. Well it’s more than a blip. One night when getting ready to go up to bed Zoe decided to start growling and barking at the door. Well that really freaked me out and scared me. It made the anxiety jump right in thinking that there was someone outside getting ready to break in. I thought I’d have to just fight for my life with just my walking stick. I did manage to grow a pair and found some courage to look outside through the window. I had no idea what I was going to see but was expecting the worst.

I looked through the window and guess what was there…………..

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Nothing. There was nothing there that shouldn’t be there. I did message mum to say I was freaked out though. But I did double and triple check all the doors were locked before we went up, just to make sure. I got a reply from mum saying that Zoe can hear things we can’t and that the growling was probably down to something that was happening halfway up the street.

That eased my mind slightly. I did go round the house the next day though with the gem essence I made called Stop. It’s an essence of black tourmaline and selenite with Black Pepper, Bay Laurel and sage essential oils. There are probably other things in it but I can’t remember. All it takes is 1 drop where you want a barrier to be to stop negative energy passing through. Hence the name Stop. So that just added an extra layer of protection.

Sharing my bed with Zoe has been a bit weird. The early mornings aren’t quite as early anymore. I’ve got her to about 7am now for breakfast so it’s not too bad. The weird bit is being woken up by her rather than an alarm. It takes a bit of getting used to but it is a nice way to wake up. I still have alarms set to be on the safe side and also if she tries earlier I can say not yet and she leave me alone. She quite good for that.

I’ve made a few more flowers this week to go with the flower display I’m making.

I have a pot and some oasis as well now so all I need to do is sort out the arrangement bit. I think that might be the hardest bit.

What else has been going on?

Sanntangle, here are the Tiles:

Yes that is 4 tiles even though the picture makes it look smaller.

They were both great to do and I’m happy with the way they’ve turned out.

The other thing tangle related is I received tile swap 7. It was from a lady called Ali Scott.

A nice thing to receive but it’s a little card and inside was this beauty:

Both are great and use the tile swap tangle. So it was a brilliant thing to receive. I haven’t heard anything about the tile I sent in yet so just in case the person hasn’t received and sees this I won’t share any pictures. Don’t want to spoil the surprise.

And the next tile swap session is tomorrow. I wonder what it will be? I wonder what I’ll come up with? Only time will tell.

The other thing about Sanntangle is it has blown up into an amazing community. Where everyone checks on each other and is ready friend and immensely supportive. It’s brilliant. Just looking through the group at the work people are posting is great and can really make you feel good and put a smile on your face. The only downside to it is that I’m struggling to find different ways to say how good the posts are. The work is that good it just doesn’t feel right always saying “That’s great”, “that’s brilliant”, “that’s amazing”. I’ve had a look through an online thesaurus to find other ways to say it and each time I note things down and then lose the note and go back to the old faithfuls. I will have to have another look and this time make proper notes and maybe stick them to the side of my laptop screen or something.

This week I received an order with lots of Sanntangle bits:

I haven’t use the dream catcher and wolf stencils yet but I did have a play with the totem stencil.

This is my totem pole. From the bottom up:

• Bear
• Panther
• Turtle
• Raven
• Eagle

There is a bee floating round at the side because I needed to disguise a mark I made on the paper by mistake.also that was the first time I’ve used real watercolour paints. You can see the paints in one of the other pictures. They are Sakura Koi Watercolour pallets. I even used real pain brushes too. I decided to go down that route because I’ve struggled using water brushes in the past. I find that they are either too dry so don’t do anything or they flood the paper so it’s too wet to work with. In the past the only other watercolours I’ve used have been watercolour pencils. They’re the ones where you colour something in them use water to blend and finish it off.

So with the totem pole I was hoping it would be a masterpiece. The drawing is ok but the painting was something I struggled with. I’m still happy with it especially as it was the first time I’ve used real water colours. I couldn’t get the effect I wanted and expected but that’s down to experience and practice. If it had come out the way the picture in my head looked it could have been sold for millions. Not that I would.

I did decide to play with the watercolours and do something else with them as a bit of fun and to practice and this is what I did:

I used the watercolours on one of my stamps. It’s another one I’m happy with. I thinks it’s good considering I have little to no experience of using watercolours. I have watched quite a few watercolour videos on YouTube though to get an idea of some of the techniques I can use with them. So there will be more playing to come.

Over the past couple of days I’ve been drawn to make a book that I can use to make notes of things that are spirit related. So if there is something they want me to do or are telling me about I can write it in there. At first I was thinking I could just put it in my phone and type it there but something said to me that it’s not quite the same. If it gets written down it becomes something physical and that just felt the right way to go with it. So here is the book I’ve made:

There are quite a few pages in there and I have sewn all the signatures together. A signature is the small group of pages. So in all there are 21 signatures in there and each has about 3, 4 or 5 pages/bits of paper. There is some more work I need to do on the book like put something over the yellow bits inside and figure out something to keep it closed but that’s a job for another day.

Over the last week I was messing about with the camera on my phone in particular the SLO-MO function and I decided to film Zoe in SLO-MO:

For some reason I think it look a bit creepy slowed down. But I was just messing about.

During the week I did some MS group work, wrote and letter and posted it. It doesn’t sound much but I had to get to the post office. It’s pretty much at the top of the street and across the road. Doesn’t sound that far but when you can’t walk any distance and have to use a wheelchair it’s like a million billion squillion mile. Going up the street is uphill and my god is it hard work getting up there but I did did everything I needed to do at the post office then made it home. The up hill bit is some what of a killer but it’s a hell of a lot easier on the way back.

While I was brushing my teeth tonight I spotted this in the bathroom mirror. Can you see a face?

As I have to be up at silly o’clock to feed Zoe and have the pleasure of Harvey for the day I’m off to bed. For someone that’s normally up late it just doesn’t feel right going to bed at this time and being up early.

Good night, love and light.