Yep, sorry it’s been two weeks. I kept saying to myself that I need to do a post. I need to do a post. I need to do a post. I kept forgetting, getting sidetracked or just losing the get up and go to write something.

I keep thinking I want to write something all deep and meaningful. I think of a subject and that it will be good to write about, but when I sit down to write a post it’s nowhere to be seen until I’ve hit the publish button.

I’ve no idea why these things never pop into my head when I want or need them too. They just don’t. Maybe my brain gets performance anxiety or something. There are times I just want to whack it to get it working again. I know that won’t help but it’s so frustrating that it doesn’t work the way I want it to.

Talking about brains not working properly. The dizziness and wobbliness it’s getting beyond a joke now. It’s not funny and I feel like if people saw me walking about (the little walking I can do) they would think that I was pissed. The fact I haven’t had a drink for about 12 months doesn’t help either. If I’d been drinking it would at least give me an excuse.

I think the whole MS thing and being in the clinically extremely vulnerable group in the last lockdown is getting me down. It just comes and goes. One moment the mood can be all good and the next it takes a nose dive. I’m glad that it’s no where near as bad as it has been in the past though. Now, it’s more annoyance and frustration rather than depression which is good.

Last weekend it was Harvey’s birthday. He turned 9. I think he had a good time even though he couldn’t have a party like he’s had in the past. The fact he had a good day is all that matters and he did so it’s all good. I made 2 birthday cards for him. One from mum and dad and one from me. Of course I didn’t get a picture of them both but I managed to remember to get a picture of the picture be from me.

I did make a bit of a change after that picture. I got rid of the balloon shape with my message on it. I replaced it with a plain panel. I thought it looked better that way which is why I made the change. And it f course me being me do don’t get a picture of the full finished article. Never mind.

I did get a phone call during the week to say thank you for one of the Christmas card I made. That’s great, it’s always good to hear that someone likes something you’ve done. Sorry no picture of that one. I did make a Christmas card for mum and dad though. And they both appreciated it. Even if I do say so myself I’m pretty chuffed with it:

Church service started again last week as well. There have only been 2 services so far and the one on Tuesday is going to be the last of the year. It’s been strange going back to church after such a long time off. I thought things were getting back to normal at the end of October with going to church but the night of the first service back the powers that be decided that it was time for lockdown 2.0. So one service back then time for another break.

So just getting back into the swing of things and then it’s time for another break. At least this time though though it be choice rather than by order. And for now there is a plan for when things can start again next year.

The thing is though that because the rules are being relaxed over Christmas I honestly think that the virus will spark up and cause another lockdown. I hope it doesn’t happen but I honestly think it might.

So, stay as safe as you can do.

Love and light.