So this is the first post not only of the new year but also of the new decade.

I’ve been thinking about how much has changed and how far I’ve come. There has been a hell of a lot of things that have gone on for me. I saw a post earlier on Facebook from someone I used to work with. They said:

“20 years and counting since I survived Y2K. Remember people we were all victims and you need to get the help you need from this awful day.

#millenniumbug”

It made me think about the last 20 years. I thought about the different jobs I’ve had. All sorts of jobs, from working in BHS, cheffing in restaurants, pulling pints in bars, serving food, answering calls and emails, teaching people in India how to write with a conversational tone and the last job was monitoring naughty boys and girls. Throughout that time there have been highs and lows. Tears, tantrums, fishnet tights and revelations. It’s astounding (time is fleeting, madness takes control) thinking of the experiences I’ve had and the things I’ve learnt.

New Year’s Eve I was at home with the dog, I was invited to go out with my mum and dad to their friends but didn’t feel like it. I thought I’d rather be at home and comfortable. I could spend all night with my pipe in my mouth if I wanted. I wouldn’t be able to if I was with them, vape pens, pipes, e-cigs are frowned upon in some places and could be bothered with the hassle. So night in with the dog, it was nice and chilled. I knew at midnight I wanted to clang my tingshaws and light some incense. I did the incense outside. But played with the dog outside for a little bit and watched the fireworks. They were going off every where. The emotion of the time did catch up to me though and I shed a little tear. Don’t know why but I have always felt a massive build up of emotion and energy on New Year’s Eve that comes to a head when the bell rings midnight.

On New Year’s Eve though I did spend some time writing a few words of my own:

“When the bell rings the year and decade ends. With a loving heart I say thank you to each and everyone of you. You’ve all played different roles in this show we call life. Some have been headliners and some played bit parts but all have impacted the story in different but your own ways.

We write each page of the story as we make our way through life. May the rest of your story be filled with adventures, magic, joy and happiness. Here’s to you with congratulations for the distance you’ve traveled. With blessings of love and light for each step you’ve yet to take.”

No idea where it came from but I thought it had a nice message so I shared it with some friends and they seemed to like it. That message goes out to everyone that wants to read it and take something from it.

Anyway back to me and the things that have happened over the past 20 years. Here are just a couple of the things I’ve done:

Been to many different dance events and danced pretty well at them despite the amount of alcohol consumed.

Danced in the closing ceremony of the commonwealth games in Manchester

Driven home from an event at 4am sober with green hair covered in glitter and with a teddy in the passenger seat wearing a seatbelt.

Competed in the regional finals of a sommelier of the year competition

Had the ability to blind taste wine tell you what the grape was, how old the wine was and where the wine came from

Started my first proper full time job

Did reiki 1 2 and mater level

Did Karuna masters

Attended a crystal diploma course (I didn’t finish the work)

Got married

Got divorced

Went to Disney Land in Florida

Had an accident where I wrote off my car

Finally said good bye to Mr Tumnas and Narnia and came out of the closet

Became a medium

Made lots of friends and lost some.

Finally getting my C in GCSE English. Whilst in the middle of a couple of MS Relapses. Unknown at the time.

And learnt about the wonders of becoming disabled because of a fucked up brain and nervous system.

There will be others but I can’t think of them right now. That’s partly down to the fucked up brain. But it’s time to start again, start fresh and start clean. Time to write the next chapter of our stories and build on the lessons of the past.

Love and light