I have absolutely no idea what’s going on at the moment. I’m lost, I’m confused and at times struggling to speak because I can’t process what’s going on. I’m feel really low because all I want is a new home and people are calling others and things going back and forth. I just don’t know.On the other note something I know that is happening is that I have found support and purpose with the lovely ladies from the local branch of the MS society. So much so I’m now joining the team (the new version of a committee) I’m going to be helping out with all things technical and computer based. I think it will involve a lot of work so it will keep me occupied and out of mischief. The volunteer application form was sent off today so hopefully I’ll hear something soon.As for things changing and happening I know it’s something that happens all the time. It’s something that makes the world go round and something that makes us move forward. Moving forward is a good thing. Why be stuck in the past. ThatS been and gone and no amount of hoping can make it change.Going to live in the past isn’t good either. There are so many people that want it to come back because things were good back then. Yes they were but back then thinks were different and not for the better. The only way to get anywhere is to accept things that have been and learn from them. Things that have been and gone were all lessons. Some may have been good and some may have been bad. Yes one of my main modes of transportation now may be a wheel chair but I’m looking at it as it’s a way around I can get about. I can go from a to b. Walking causes me a lot of pain and an immense amount of tiredness and stress so I don’t do it as much as I did.You see the signs on the motorway saying tiredness can kill. For me it can. When I’m tired I get really really confused and don’t really know what’s going on. I could easily make a mistake that could impact my life even more or at worst severely affect someone else’s. That’s not something I want to be responsible for.The only way I would like to affect people’s lives is for the better. I want to fill others lives with love, light, healing and precious times and memories. I want to help people and do what’s right.This illness or condition I have (what ever you want to call it) is affecting my life in lots of different ways. At the end of the day it’s a lesson. It’s teaching me things I need to learn that will make me a better person.I’m still confused about what’s going on but now I know I have to ask for help. That’s another point asking for help is not a sign of weakness. It’s a way of looking at things a different way, getting a different perspective if you will. Looking at things differently teaches you to accept situations and helps you move forward. Moving forward has to be a good thing. I’m not talking about progress for the sake of progress but evolution. Things have to evolve. It’s the way nature intended things to happen.If we didn’t evolve, we would still be slug things floating around in that primordial gloop. We wouldn’t have phones, we wouldn’t be able to connect with people on the other side of the earth, I wouldn’t be able to do what I’m doing now. Evolution has to be a good thing. We have to accept other people’s differences and work together. It’s the only way we as a species will get anywhere.Anyway, I’m of to carry on being confused and get some help. Love and light to everyone and please pass that on to all you come into contact with.